#stressing hard

 I’m very sorry @space-strudel I feel really bad you have no idea. I have one dumb sketch for day 4-6 but it’s really not all that (It’s not worth posting..), and I haven’t even started on day 7 and 8. When I try drawing it out, it comes out really really bad! <8( I’m gonna try, but there is no guarantee that I will make it on time. 

I had the sheer audacity, in a moment of distress related to my classic “intense relationships,” to ask the Internet for advice, vainly hoping for help with appropriate DBT skills, stories from others with the diagnosis, any shred of advice on how to cease the toxicity I could feeling rising up in me. I tearfully googled “relationship advice for people with BPD.” A rookie mistake, what a fucking joke. While some were rather benign, most of the top hits were regarding how to deal with your BPD partner. Not a single top page was solely intended for someone actually trying to live within BPD, only those who must “suffer” our presence. I’m tired of explaining why this is beyond fucked - I have already rage cried enough this evening. But at the very least allow me to leave you with this: fuck the stigma, fuck the mental health professionals that continue to perpetuate it, fuck media representation of BPD, and finally, just in case you find yourself associating with any of the three, fuck you.

Just wanna chill, smoke some bud and hoop this rainy afternoon away 💕🍃🌀