#strawb update

Well it's been a while. Sorry for that. Not sure if anyone is still around...If you are, I just wanted to give a life update.

I am officially a mummy ❤️

Baby Strawb (Dale) was born 24 days ago. He is the sweetest little thing in the world and I love him with every fibre of my being.

It's been tough though. Baby blues are real and hit hard for 2 weeks. I felt detatched, depressed and unworthy all the time and I just couldn't understabd him. Add sleepless nights on top of that...hoo boy.

But it got better. We have a good sleep schedule now (Strawb doesn't but that's fine) so the sleepless nights are over. And his little personality is starting to show already. And although its still difficult, we manage. And he's worth every second.

So what does this mean for writing? Well...I'm hoping to start up again. I'm off for another 5 months and I'm hoping to fill the small windows of free tine with writing. I'll likely start with HCs since they're low maintenance (if people still want my Ishileon AU of course) and slowly ease back into BA. I'll hopefully look through my old asks and get around to finally answering them or just pluck new ideas out of my brain. Who knows.

But I want to try. I need to feel normal in little chunks. And writing made me feel good. I'm just hoping I can be a writer mummy 😂

Heyyyy! Long time no speak!

We are doing good thank you! We're hoping he'll be here in 4.5 weeks now - OH MAN! And I'm HUGE! He's got a few more pounds to gain and I have no idea how he'll fit!

He's got one hell of a personality too. Right little drama king. Has temper tantrums and everything. It's very sweet (and uncomfortable...).

But my memory has gone. The brain fog is very real. Can't remember anything unless I write it down...not so great for work!

I hope everyone here is doing well. I'm really hoping to get back into writing at some point. But at the moment, my passion is my OC and the campaign he's in - and I'm not sure that people are interested in that so I'm staying away until my DR passion comes back...

Heyyyyy!

We are doing good! Theoretically he will be here next week so the stress and panic is really hitting now! I'm having a hormonal cry every day and sleep is really hard now.

But health wise, I'm good! And he's good too! It's just so strange to think my little family will go from a four (me, husband and two cats) to a five! 😱😱😱

Heyyyy! Sorry, I saw the notification for this as I was eating and forgot to respond!!

We're doing good! 28 weeks pregnant tomorrow (officially 3rd trimester 😱😱) with 12 weeks to go. He's a little character, I swear. His kicks are so hard now, got a whallop in the hip bone the other night when trying to sleep! And he has his favourite foods - hummus, chocolate, apple juice and bran flakes.

We've also named him! So he is only occasionally known as the Strawb now. They say from about week 24 you should call them by their real name if you've chosen in so we've just gotten used to his name now.

As always - sorry for the lack of posts. Life is really getting serious now and a lot of things are just running away from me.

But I did promise you all a Strawb update...and today is the biggest one.

Heyyyy!

Ah I would LOVE to say yes. But writing has kind of dried out at the moment 😞 I keep going into my asks to look at the old requests or looking at the list to see what I was working on. And when I get there its like ehhhh I can't.

I am DYING to write Broken Arrow too but being at the desk is soooo uncomfortable during the work day that sitting there after work fills me with dread.

So yeah. I think I'd best say no for now 😞 but hold onto the idea and hopefully at some point (maybe when he's born) I'll get back into it.

The morning sickness is GONE! I feel HUMAN again! And I just want to eat everything haha!

And my energy and concentration is BACK! YAAAAS! Which is an excellent sign for my writing and HCs. So I'm hoping to start back up with these in the next week.

Got my next scan 4 weeks tomorrow. So get to see lil' Strawberry again on the screen. Very excited.

And I'm starting to get a bump! I'm a big girl anyway so I wasn't expecting to show so soon. But I am! Hurrah!

So yeah. That's about it.

Keep an eye out for HCs that'll be catching up on in my asks. And HOPEFULLY I can get this new chapter of Broken Arrow out too - I'm stuck at a certain section and I'm a writer that is imprisoned by writing in order!!

Heyy!

So their nickname is Strawberry or Strawb or Strawbie yeah!

When we were hiding the pregnancy, my husband's mum kept calling them 'Little Bean' but it never stuck because the nickname for one of our cats is Bean. She eventually said they were too big to be called 'Bean' so I joked and said that the baby was as big as a strawberry according to my app. She then called them Secret Strawberry...and it just stuck!

Obviously they are no longer a secret to most people so they are now affectionately named Strawb. Even if they are the size of an avocado now!!