"I like The Beach (2000) with Leonardo DiCaprio who plays a guy named Richard who lives on a paradise-like island in a commune, with a group of people. In my eyes that is the real life, because more and more I am getting the idea that in this society we are living in an illusion. Ever since I was a young girl I always felt like an outsider, a bit of an ‘einzelgänger’ and the strange duckling where I grew up. This is why I’ve always had the feeling of wanting to flee or escape. I have even attempted to live in certain circles, but eventually, it hasn’t been necessary to be in those circles especially since I am older now. It was just a particular phase I went through in my life. It can happen to anyone. I mean somewhere passed the middle of the film something happens with Richard and because of that he isolates himself from the group and he kind of loses his grip on reality. I also kind of lost my grip on reality more than once, but I recovered. At this moment the only way of escaping this world I do through the music that I create. I sing and compose and with that I try to create my own paradise, but the reason why I really feel this film so much is because they escaped our society that we live in to a paradise where they created a place to live, self-sufficient, close to nature and not so brainwashed like how most people in our society can be. It’s not like I want to live in a commune or something, but what I am trying to say is that I do see myself escaping this society, someday or just partially. A place where the weather is much better. Closer to nature or closer to the sea."
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Photo and story by Feargal Agard
