Woobin took slow careful steps up the Seulgi's grave, trying to keep himself composed. Despite being wrapped up in winter clothing, his eyes stung from the cold; or so he told himself it was the cold. He wore the couple jacket he had gotten for them while they were still together. In his hand was a small black box with a neat white bow along with a red envelope.
He had to muster up a lot of courage to finally see her. He tried his best to avoid it, honestly. After news of her death, he buried himself in work and drank himself to oblivion at night since then. It hit him hard. Death was never kind to him and Death took away a friend and a significant other. He thought that perhaps they'd be together again one day. But, apparently not.
Woobin knelt in front of her stone, reading her name to himself. "S-Sseul-ah," he rasped, his throat suddenly dry, "I miss you... I didn't get to say goodbye to you... I'm so sorry..." He couldn't say much else. he was never good at saying his thoughts aloud. "I got you something. Well, I got it for you while we were together and planned to give it to you when we spent Christmas together." He looked down at the box and put it down at the head of the stone. Inside was a heart-shaped diamond necklace.
He didn't know what to say at that point. He was just hollow and numb from the cold. "I wrote a letter to you. It says more than I can ever say now." He bit his lip and gently stroked the tombstone as if it were Seulgi's face. He wished it was. He missed her. "I'll come back when I get the chance to. I promise. I'll never forget you either. Be happy in heaven. It's where you belong." With that, he stood and bowed in respect before trudging off with a heavy heart.
The letter:
My dear Sseul,
My sweet, kind Sseul. I don't understand why the universe took you away from Earth already. You had so much you wanted to do. I didn't show you my care or love enough. It was such a short time. I don't understand it. I really don't.
I miss you. I miss your warmth against my chest. I miss your soft skin against my skin. I miss tangling my fingers in your silky hair. I miss your pretty eye smile and your adorable laugh. I just miss everything about you. I let you go too soon. I always thought that maybe we could have a future together but it seems it can't be that way.
That necklace-- it's supposed to represent my infinite care I have towards you. That if one day we wouldn't be together as we thought we would, you'd always remember that I'd never stop caring about you. I wanted to give it to you today, Christmas Day, with the hopes of my feelings for you to grow into something as strong as love.
But, time was too short. I love you and I wish I loved you more. I wished you were here so I could love you more.
Love always,
Binnie.
❋
