I just want things to be okay. I'd really like it if you stopped pushing me away. This is getting out of hand, I just dont understand what to do. I just want you back. I just w an t to laugh with u agian. I hate how it's Wake up, feed alone, come back argue with u cuz ure tired and upset yet won't fucking say what's wrong so I try to keep my mouth shut to not cause problems but then u over think that too and it causes shit, go to work, come back and argue some more. When all I want is to curl up with u cuz I'm tired I fucking hurt and I'm stressed af and need u. But you've spent all your time in your head and won't let me in so busy push me away then complain your a burden well if you'd stop torturing yourself then you'd fucking realize your my happiness and all I want but your too busy like trying to get me to hate u or some shit. Do you not love me? Do u not want to be here? Cuz your constant distance is making ME feel like u want to be elsewhere. YOUR pushing me away. If your not gunna tall to me of course I'm gunna hit up other ppl cuz I dont know what else to fucking do. And then I go back to work. Come home and your either trying to leave by yourself or sleep. So agian like I feel like I'm just annoying and deff what you dont fucking want. All I do is tell ppl how much I adore u and hope to get to do something fun with u but your just bottling shit up, telling yourself I dont care and making shit worse for yourself. It's killing me cuz idk how to help or if u even want my hro. I'm here for u stop pushing me away. Your killing me . Do you love me or not? Cuz if u truly dont u can leave at any moment I just want you happy. What am I supposed tohinnk. Or what to do. Life is fucking getting more and more miserable and ya I'm getting bitchier cuz ure pushing me away and it fucking hurts and leaves me feeling broken and beaten. So it makes me angry cuz I feel like I'm just screwing everything up and loosing everything cuz I'm a fucking idiot. Please tell me what's wrong I just want to see you smile agian babe. I love u to death pls...
