*Lynx Evergreen*

You always lied to me or kept secrets or did shit behind my back. So fuck it I'm done, you can't ever just be honest. Why hide so fucking much from me if you truly cared? What was the point of always keeping things to yourself? Always making sure you were okay before caring about me. I always cared about you.fuck it.

Shit like this is what destroys me and throws me head first back me into this never ending loophole of dissapointments and hatred. This empty void surrounds me and disturbing images light up like moldy movie screens across my brain and every sense lights up with the painful scorching puke - provoking memories that cripple me in its wake. I'm done for. Theyve basically won. I'll pretend to hold my head up high and literally drag myself threw another rehab, another last flint of Hope. I should spare myself the misery and heartbreak but he'll I'm already suffering at 110% why not add another 20? I want to be dead. I truly wish for The Reaper to bring me back to sleep. I give up. But the world doesn't give a goddamn so fuck it I'll just keep destroying myself praying something nice may happen for once....

4 Grams H 2 T's of G half G of Coke 2 2mg bars I still have money leftover, oh and I have 3 packs of smokes and six bags of rigs. Hell ya! getting XTC and even more H in s couple days. Now I just need weed and a few other things!