& there is part of me that hopes he’s lurking around social media searching for his name in tags and understands that for a lot of people (or maybe just me who knows) this doesn’t feel...closed

While you're in the writing mood, lets get this done. Writing, writing, proud analysing. Do you know where your cat is right now? Writing mesmerising text messages that go down in a swirl with chocolate sprinkles as seen in every chocolate TV commercial ever made. I'm proud to feature other people on my Instagram, it shows I've grown as a person. I'm proud of all the selfies too, it shows I'm more confident. There's no stopping me. If you 'just believe'.. moods come and go and that's the beauty of it. Say something terrible. Be awful to the person sitting next to you, at least it’s original. Original is the same as special. Caught in your head and yappin' all the way to the bank. Steve Roggenbuck, lets interview each other. First let me write a piece about you, get all applications into me. I set a timer for 45 minutes and sometimes that's a long 45 minutes. I was writing a letter to the Keerkring and I'm doing a good job. A sign of maturity is being able to be critical but also positive in the same paragraph. A sign of maturity is candid humour. Anywayzzzzz/I watched Logan Paul be Logan Paul and I think he's very lonely at night, even though he doesn't need anyone. I sat on the couch and attempted to make myself cry. I don't think this is as ridiculous as it seems because at least you are not trying to deny something. It's when you deny things that stuff get tricky, dangerous even. oh GOD I'M UNSTOPPABLE. Dreary kak rain, glad I came, let's see what you've got. I shat all over Merel I told her 'Fuck therapy, fuck the government and fuck all your good intentions'. The best you can do is help yourself an share the experience with others, that's how art is created. I think I want to write Steve Roggenbuck an email asking him to keep making art, coz he wants to become a doctor now. But it's knowing he's out there that gives me hope. I don't think he'll ever truly quit cos I think this is his calling. Might have to make some adjustments but I don't want him to stop. Give your sub-conscious a chance. Hey that should be a bumper sticker. Oh I'm feeling pretty good, maybe the Bill Burr approach is good. Shit on everything and everyone just let it all out. It makes you a nicer person in the end. 

"I was ok in the sea put me back" - #steveroggenbuck #crunkjuice (at Baguran)

if you ever perform a lutheran or methodist sex act on me i will simply tell you darling, this is not satanic like you promised, and you will probably reply yolo and then for your birthday i will get you elected as a legislator in the house of representatives which will really piss you off i really want a british man to narrate a video about our mating rituals like the moment when we start watching kazaam is when the movie would start you look so good in a mirror holding a phone i want you in the place where you swallow rain i want you in the quietness of these animals and their homes when i'm doing anything with you i think i want to do this with you until the end of the year of the horse you are more beautiful than a horse every comparison between a non-human animal and you seems accurate you seem like you are a toy bird full of live birds you seem like rain passing through lower clouds you seem like in the universe there is nothing softer than you i like you so much i view your snaps for the whole ten seconds with you the silence of the moon is not like usual silence it is more long it is like there are parts of you so quiet i could not even put my ear on them i can only whisper onto you you are barely like rain but you are close enough that i have to say it just like how you are not even bear-like i don't know the name of your body's language but what it says to me is more compelling than the sun there's nothing more compelling than the sun but your body is more compelling to me than the sun i think the way you touched me is like the air at the top of the night small bears walking on corn stalks you gentle bear how i like you now is impossible for me to shut up about go in the night with me go with me in there give me something small from the inside of the night