#steppingback

feels good to post nothing on insta atm tbh. I needed this break. I needed this distance. Ive been checking on some people who inspire me now and then, but I've de-installed it on my phone for a while. It feels good. These breaks are so important for me. Especially now, when I really feel like I needed to step back. Esp because I have many tasks to do atm and I need to re-structure myself and re-focus. Although I still tend to be nervous or hesitant in certain situations, it really gets better . I am feeling more calmness. And dont get me wrong- I love to follow the people I follow on IG but this constant online-activity distracts me a lot from real life, creating an artificial bubble that we need to step out of now and then. It is necessary because it can soak you in too easily how it seems to me. So stepping out feels good, feels natural. The urgent need to constantly digitally socialize is beginning to fade, it becomes more focused. Focused on the people I really want to spend time with in person instead of digitally in an online space. Nonetheless, so many people and their and/or music deeply inspires me and I love to check on them and what they currently do! I also see social media as an useful tool or instrument for us to share our creativity, thoughts and ideas. Our art and music. But being offline or stepping back also gives us so much energy back. So much inspiration and creativity. Raw connection. Real communication, vis a vis. Herein lies the root of connection, creativity and communication: In raw exchange.

Spontaneous Insta-Detox . Will be more online on here again , always enjoying my calm and friendly Tumblr-family :) Insta can easily turn into a bubble while tumblr is not. I feel like this shift is very good for me rn and I have always a boost of inspiration (and communication!) when taking my time off from Insta. Mabe because I am connected to many people that I personally know and that even live in the same city/country as me. It feels good to not always be online, available, scrolling sharing. To take conscious breaks and to return even more to myself and to my digital scrapbook/diary here with no rush, no comparison and nor shame nor guilt. Don't get me wrong but hustling in silence has become a way of living for me. Not that I dont talk to anybody bout it- but I dont talk to everybody about it all the time. It's a tiny yet significant difference ! It also feels like really growing up. The best way to share is to listen to myself, to write it down or to get creative in any other way. And ofc I share things when I feel like doing so (esp sharing pictures of nature, selfwritten texts or art that deeply inspires me). I think there is a healthy way of using Social Media when we consciously step away, take breaks (not limiting ourselves!) and distance ourself from over-stimulation. As a highly sensitive person I catch myself triggered, nervous or anxious when I consume too much social media (in particular IG) as there is oftentimes so much content mixed up and chaotic, making me at times definitely more anxious and nervous than happy (ofc not all the time). But whenever I feel that I've reached such a point again, it is my mind and body telling my to consciously step back and to silently focus on myself, my wellbeing and intentionally turning the volume of the noise of my head down. Whenever I feel like it- I'll return- no limits, not judging myself. It's like deep breathing for the mind; slowing down the volume of our thoughts and letting peace naturally enter my being. Besides, I have so much work to do that it seems best for me to do so right now, as I owe myself this regeneration.