That movie was like ... wow. It was like a Chick Tract came to life and exploded all over my television.

@stephiehell​ tagged me.

1. what is the most often misunderstood or misinterpreted emoji? what is the misconception?

I’m not an emoji person, I find them sort of confusing

2. urban | suburban | rural  pick one and tell me why.

There’s a big part of me that wants to sell everything here and to move to a big piece of land with a little house on it. I’ve always had that dream, since I was a kid even though I’ve been a City girl most of my life. I was born in San Francisco but grew up on a small town on the coast, and then in a tinier town inland where our street dead ended in miles of cattle pasture. I went to college in New York City. I live in Los Angeles County now but in a funky little canyon not far from the City. I love the semi-rural place I have now where on some days more horses than cars come by my house, but I’m still 20 minutes from an urban place. I don’t know how well I’d do in a fully rural situation.

3. what is something you do that harms you, and you fully understand the harm it will do, yet you continue to do it?

Lately, being less active than I should be. In part as I have a hernia, but that’s only part of it. Depression is another part, though I know being more active helps me to be less depressed.

4. what part of your body or physical feature do you think is your best?

My sister asked me once and I said my eyes, she said, nope your hair and walked out of the room. So, I used to think my hair, but it’s gone now since I had to shave my head when I had cancer. it’s growing back in fast but i want to do something unusual with it now because I never have. Then we’ll see.

5. what is the most common reason you can’t sleep?

Anxiety and being too in my head. But lately it’s been more frickin’ dogs barking all night long at raccoons/opossums/coyotes. Also, honking peacocks, and crowing roosters. It’s not for everyone and sometimes not even for me.

6. how would you describe your skin?

DRY lately, Our humidity here in So. Cal has fallen below 15% this week, and with all the fires, probably lower. And it shows my age ;) I lived on a boat for a few years and got a LOT of sun, also spent a lot of time laying out by a pool or at the beach. No regrets though.

7. long hair | short hair   pick one and tell me why.

Appropriate question. I have almost always had long hair, and since it was thick and wavy I never had to style it, or blow it dry. Now it’s short and I don’t love it, but it’s been easy so far and that’s probably the biggest thing for me, ease. I don’t know if I will grow it back out or keep it short. I feel old now as it’s got a lot of gray coming in and I feel like a grandmother. I think I’m going to bleach it blonde and dye the tips purple or some such. Can’t decide.

8. what posts on facebook are the most disturbing?

A guy I blocked recently posted that Maxine Waters should be lynched. The pro-Trump posts are disturbing and never have links to actual articles. I realized people don’t care if what they are posting is true, it just isn’t what the Democrats are posting and that’s good enough. Everyone seems to tag me in anything chicken, that gets old, but I do have chickens so I kinda just roll with it.

9. would you fuck a married person OR fuck someone who isn’t your spouse? AND, if you have already done either of these things, would you have answered “yes” to this question before you had done it yourself?

Never say never but that said, I've not to date fucked a married person, and I’ve never been married so I’ve never cheated on a spouse. I was in a relationship for close to 20 years and I did not sleep with anyone else while he and I were together. I generally believe that, to be fair, one needs to deal with their own baggage before moving on to a new person.

10. what is your role in making the world a better place?

I try to give back where and when I can. My biggest concrete giving back has been to sponsor 175 micro-loans through KIVA.org - I started making loans through the Tumblr team when I first joined Tumblr in 2008/2009.

11. think of the worst time you got something in your eye. what was the thing that got in your eye?

I got a piece of grit or something in my eye during a windstorm several years ago. My old boyfriend had to leave work to come and take me to the emergency room. The doctor used a Q-Tip to roll up my eye lid to see what it was and that activity was enough to pop it out apparently. Suddenly, I was fine. They gave me drops but I really didn’t need them, I was fine.

I figure if I’ve gotten tagged, everyone has already been tagged at this point. :) If anyone wants to answer questions, you’ve been tagged!

Here are my 11 Qs.

If you were to come back as an animal, what animal and why?

Has there ever been a mystery in your life? Was it solved? How?

What’s your poison?

What’s your Achilles Heel?

Favorite Person, Place and Thing?

Tell me your Favorite Story?

What piece of music fills you with hope?

What do you miss most from your childhood?

Tell me about your siblings

Moths or Butterflies?

Wow, this is good. I don't think anything is really important but I can list a few things. 

Number one that I appreciate realness, I don't like fake people. I like raw and real people, own up to who you are whether it be wrong or right, be you and whoever you are in the moment, and me trying to do this in my own life is challenging but rewarding. If I make mistakes I make mistakes, i face them and own up to it. If I like or don't like something it’s my choice and my right, I don't need a reason and neither does anyone else. Believe what you want, be what you want and live life to the way you think is best. Oh and try not to be an asshole, I think this is a good goal in life LOL!

Number two I am severely deaf, online that means nothing, in the tangible real world it means people accuse me of being a snob because i don’t hear them, it also means I often walk around without my hearing aids because...well sound is just annoying sometimes! I'm actually very sensitive to sounds I don't like. I hate when people find out I am deaf and start yelling at me or over enunciating their words...like wtf I am deaf not stupid! I don’t use the word hard of hearing because I fucking hate it. You don;t tell someone they are hard of seeing if they wear glasses, you say they are legally blind or need glasses. So I prefer deaf or I wear hearing aids. I don't know sign language and really have very little interest in it.

Number three I am a spiritual geek/artist. Do I make money off it? No, am I particularly talented? Nope. But I love geeks and geeky things, I tend to love nerds and people who are passionate about pop culture, music, art, culture, the world, if you are passionate about something I think that makes you a geek/nerd and I think you should let that side of you shine. I believe in spirituality not religion. I believe that everyone should believe what they want to believe in and let me believe what I believe. I believe love is pretty powerful and can heal or comfort. I also know it can hurt and cause growth, and that it is worth the pain and challenge and suffering. I wish I could be a more loving/kind person.