#starrynsfw

SO! after i went and got bday brunch i met a cute guy for coffee. the date was shakey but then he invited me home. he was nice and kind but quiet and makes a lot of eye contact. we were sitting in his one bedroom appt, drinking tea and still feeling each other out. then he offers to kiss me and i say no b/c i want to by im terrified. (thank you @bob-nixilis for your bathroom support texts lol). after a nother cup of tea i agree b/c FUCK IT  IM SO YOUNG AND HES NICE AND IM THIRST! and it was the best thing. got its been so long. so one things leads to another and we are having the BEST SEX ive ever had. nothing intense but hes got skilled hands and just buried me in his thighs and was well packed and thought the same things about me. We talk and cuddle and nap in post coital bliss. we shower ( i almost flood his bathroom) and then we are talking again all cuddled on a chair and he is just to soft and kind and honest and calm and approachable and hes so patient with how nervous and chatty i get and its great!!!!

we got some to go food and i cant wait to see him again and he said he wanted to see me first!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have a date on friday with a diff guy which should be fun.

ironically i made an appt with my shirnk to talk about how bad i am with being gay and occasionally sex repulsed and have problems with being physical