#starfront

Birthday gift for my sister because she’s awesome

It’s another one of her ocs

Imagine getting conned by a beautiful indigenous witchy woman. Like what do you even do

Another drawing for my sister but it’s a meme (as are most of the drawings I do of her characters)

Another Starfront post

And, surprise surprise, it’s Max again because their story makes me sad

Attempting to imitate my traditional style by using a small sketch pencil and not clicking undo once the entire time

This was kind of a challenge, since I rely heavily on undoing and redoing my line work to make it look as good as possible, but it helped me realise that I don’t necessarily need it to make my art unique

I’m trying to rediscover my style lately, since I’m not feeling too happy with my art right now. As beautiful as some of my recent pieces have been, it doesn’t feel like how I want my art to be

Throughout my gap year year, I’ll be working on improving my writing and getting to a comfortable place in my art before I head off to university. Hopefully by then, I can be confident enough in myself to start completely fresh and not have to worry about the person I used to be

I used to do art for myself when I was younger, and got made fun of a lot because of it. So I started to draw what I thought other people would enjoy, which led me to make some choices in my writing I really didn’t like. I scrapped a lot of my old stories because they just weren’t what I wanted anymore, and lately I’ve been afraid to work on SnakeFace and Emberfall for this exact reason. I’m setting them aside for now until I can figure out how I want the story to appeal to myself, not to the people around me

I’m tired of being a people pleaser; it’s exhausting and it’s been making me feel like I’m not really here. I just hate that it took me until I graduated to realise this. I want my art to really feel like me, so people don’t have to know what I look or act like to understand me. The same goes for my music. I haven’t written an original song by myself in years simply because I wasn’t sure if everyone else would like it, completely disregarding how much I would like it

A few years ago, I wanted to be someone my younger, child self would be proud to be, and would look up to, which led to me being the exact person I didn’t want to be. I became cruel to myself, and said things to other people I wish I hadn’t. And no matter what I do now, that will never go away. The people I know now will never be able to forget that person no matter what I do. But if I move past that person and start fresh, the new people I meet don’t have to think of me as the person I loathed the most. I want to better myself and become a person I can be proud of. For myself.

Another one of my sister’s characters :D @bugothebugoness

This one’s named “Buckethead,” but we just call her Bucky for short - She’s the younger sister of another character named Kitoshi

Max apologist until the day I die

Hey I’m alive I guess

I doodled my sister’s ( @bugothebugoness ) characters because I love them dearly and they deserve a happy ending after all the trauma she puts them through

Their names are Jay and Daisy and they are in love

*whispers* write me fluuuuuff~