#starboy.

I was deeply in love with Shuuichi Saihara, but I can’t remember for the life of me if he ever reciprocated my feelings. I remember telling him, but he never actually answered as to whether or not he felt the same.

Saihara was very close to Kaede, they were best friends, almost inseparable. It was really nice that they were such good friends with one another, especially because she encouraged him to come out of his shell and be more confident in himself, which I was really happy about!

In turn, I was incredibly close to Kiibo. We were really close because he was very interested in space! I loved talking to him about whatever he wanted to hear about, and I think I remember him mentioning a crush on either Kaede or Ouma.

I was incredibly upset when I heard that Kaede had murdered Amami. She and him had seemed pretty close, and I was shocked to hear that she had murdered ANYONE at all.

I was really close with Hoshi as well, we liked to talk to each other, and I remember him talking to me about weed. I don’t think I ever actually took any?

Shinguuji made me feel pretty uncomfortable, especially after I found out about his sister Miyadera. I had a sister too, as well as a brother, and it made me feel a bit sick to my stomach.

Iruma, I believe, had a crush on me, and I tried my best to let her down gently. We ended up becoming friends after that, but we weren’t nearly as close as I was with Hoshi or Kiibo.

Ouma is a touchy subject. On one hand, I didn’t really blame him for his behavior, and I can’t say that I believed him when he said all those horrible things that he supposedly did. On the other hand, I was incredibly jealous of him because I thought that he had a crush on Saihara as well, and it made me really upset, plus I truly thought that he was the mastermind at one point.

I killed Ouma. I killed him half out of sheer desperation for the killing game to end and half because I felt... envious because he seemed a bit closer to Saihara than me? I don’t really know.

Maki was a childhood friend of mine, which is why I was so close with her. She seemed a bit more distant than how I had known her when we were young, but I was still good friends with her.

I had told Saihara how I felt right before my execution, but was whisked away by Monokuma before I could hear what Saihara said in return.

My only regret was killing Ouma. I really regret ever hurting him, or hurting Saihara, or hurting anyone else. And I feel like trash for doing it.