11, 12 and 16 - stanbillyhargrove 💜
11. describe the feeling of opening your heart up?
Warm. Feeling the beats of my heart seem to speed up while talking to whoever that ive come to trust. But there’s a moment where I would stop and think “will this hurt me..?” But then I feel the warm and somewhat safe feeling roll over me as I’m talking to them, tears most likely rolling down if it’s something I thought about and it ruined my mood, and then they came along and cheered me up more.
12. what makes you smile?
Seeing people have a fun/good time, hearing that I made them laugh, or smile, or hell even cry happy tears! Besides, seeing all the happiness that others have, I just love painting, dancing around my room, listening to stupid songs that no one normal would like 😂
16. does being emotionally vulnerable make you scared?
Scared..? Yes. I’m always terrified I’m going to open myself up too much and someone’s either going to be scared of what they learn and run away or use it against me. However, I decide that I can’t live like that... I can’t live in constant fear that another friend, another found family member, another person that I come to trust and love is going to use my vulnerability to where it could kill me; so I’ll remain emotionally vulnerable because it become a part of who I am and maybe I am too trusting - looking for the good in the people when there could be none.