#stagnight

Lyrics mostly! A song will usually really resonate with me for a specific chapter and the title ends up being a line that when combined with other verses embodies the chapter in my head:

Make No Sound - from Hold Me Down by Halsey - Even before his encounter with Romilda, Harry is struggling with things like eating and sleeping and processing Sirius’s death (My demons are begging me to open up my mouth) and at the end of the chapter he hears Romilda’s voice (Throw me in the deep end, watch me drown)

And We’re Starting at the End - from Alone Together by Fall Out Boy - Harry is assaulted, Romilda promises to lead him back to the safety of Gryffindor and, well...doesn’t (I don’t know where I’m going, But I don’t think I’m coming home, And I said, I’ll check in tomorrow if I don’t wake up dead, This is the road to ruin and we’re starting at the end)

Somebody Catch My Breath - from Goner by Twenty One Pilots - Harry’s first day after it happens (I’m a goner, somebody catch my breath)/(The ghost of you, is close to me, I’m inside out, you’re underneath) and he hasn’t told anyone (I’ve got two faces) and he feels pretty out of it (Don’t let me be gone)

Way Down We Go - from Way Down We Go by Kaleo - Harry’s eating worsens and he begins to fall into the dangerous obsession with exercise (Way down we go, you let your feet run wild, yes and they will run you down, down til the dark, down til you fall) and he wrestles with the meaning of what Romilda did to him (Oh, Father tell me, do we get what we deserve?)

Lightning in a Bottle - from Electric Love by Børns - Harry realizes, quite suddenly, that he fancies Ginny (Baby you’re like lightning in a bottle, I can’t let you go know that I got it, All I need is to be struck, By your electric love) and spends some more time with her, driving thoughts of Romilda (She’s sweet like candy in my veins) a little further away

Hours on Empty - from Control by Halsey - Harry gets...well, a lot worse, his eating habits slip even further (I’m bigger than my body, I’m colder than this home, I’m meaner than my demons, I’m bigger than these bones), he tries to suppress his bad dreams (I sat alone, in bed till the morning, I’m crying, “They’re coming for me”), his behavior becomes more about a power struggle both over himself and between other people (And all the kids cried out, “Please stop, you’re scaring me,” I can’t help this awful energy, God damn right, you should be scared of me, Who is in control?) and as a perfect snapshot of where he’s at: (I paced around for hours on empty, I jumped at the slightest of sounds, And I couldn’t stand the person inside me, I turned all the mirrors around)

Even If It Hurts - from Even If It Hurts by Sam Tinnesz - from Ron and Hermione’s point of view, things have reached a critical juncture and this is when they really start pushing though they know it will make Harry angry with them (Even if it hurts, Even if it makes me bleed, I’m gonna carry you, Pushing through, With the dirt on my sleeves)/(Not gonna run, I’ll be there when you need me)

With the Dirt On My Sleeves - also from Even If It Hurts by Sam Tinnesz - the same song, but from Harry’s point of view - he opens up a bit to Luna, and then, finally, to Ron and Hermione because deep down he knows it’s his only chance (These nails, In my hands, Erasing all the lines in the sand, I’ve got no, Regret, ‘Cause if I could I’d do it over again) and his secrets make it to the surface (’Cause when you get this close, You can feel the heat, Now you’re so afraid, Of what’s underneath, Oh don’t)

Face of Contusions - from Cut My Lip by Twenty One Pilots - Harry is making an effort to ‘get better,’ both for Ron and Hermione’s sake and, less enthusiastically, for his own because he knows his choices are disappearing (I’ll keep on trying, Might as well)/(Though I am bruised, Face of contusions, Know I’ll keep moving) but the pull to retreat back into his disordered habits is a little too strong (I keep on going back, Even though it’s me I abuse, I’ll keep on going back) - there’s also, of course, the reference to Harry’s fight with Malfoy (Face of contusions/Cut my lip)