#spotify jam

Join my jam: https://open.spotify.com/socialsession/4RrbftI8RUI5drjGFaDUja?si=R99uNj9RTwqdFYlnbsRbTg&utm_source=share-options-sheet&utm_medium=share-link

I'm officially done with my masters degree. I'm well over the age of being an adult and yet i still feel 22 in my head. Yes i have to heal to metaphorically feel somewhat closer to my age. Yes im saying that as if it's a tiny errand a trip around town can fix. This was supposed to be posted on 5th May 2025 but i couldn't have processed any of it on the last fokin day of my exams so thats alright. I don't even know what i'm typing. Life sounds unimaginable outside these instructional walls. By that i mean the coming journey is bound to be lonely. Academically, personally, socially. Yes i know i can change that. Yes i eventually will. But right now i'm supposed to be packing my stuff in this mess of a hostel room i call my own till 10th of this month. What the fuck. I haven't started. because ugh. I mean i was never not incredibly lonely. I've lived my whole life inside myself. There's nowhere safer. You can't tell me there is. There isn't. I told my mentor(s) I've inadvertently stopped thinking about my feelings and having feelings about my thoughts. But the exams are over and im back to square one with a boxfull of thoughts and feelings in the shape of puzzle pieces i don't know where to put. Or maybe its the music(which btw I'll post the jam link of if anyone wants in). Okay lets be positive. No i hate making that medicated ahh conscious decision. Lets. Instead. Try.Not. Being. Negative. Yeah that sounds so much better. Okay. I have a plan. I may feel lost but its not permanent. Growth isn't linear. And im pretty positive i'm not the same as i came. New beginnings are scary. Its okay to be scared. Its okay to have a thousand thoughts and cherry pick through them in order to stay sane and still connected to your reality. Also. God is not gonna let me down. Okay lets do this.

doing this again! let's listen to more music together, but more importantly: MAKE ME LISTEN TO YOUR MUSIC!

here is the link to join the jam I plan to have it going for hours, so feel free to hop in and out as you'd like

DM me to join the discord to chat :3

here is a small portion of the main playlist (it has over 80 songs, so can't fit the whole list here)

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