#spoon river

FRANCIS TURNER

Da ragazzo

non potevo correre né giocare.

Da uomo potei solo sorseggiare dalla coppa, non bere - perché dopo la scarlattina m’era rimasto il cuore malato.

Eppure riposo qui consolato da un segreto

che solo Mary conosce:

c’è un giardino di acacie,

di catalpe e di pergole dolci di viti - là,

quel pomeriggio di giugno

a fianco di Mary -

mentre la baciavo con l’anima sulle labbra

l’anima d’un tratto volò via.

Molte volte ho studiato la lapide che mi hanno scolpito: una barca con vele ammainate, in un porto. In realtà non è questa la mia destinazione ma la mia vita. Perché l'amore mi si offrí e io mi ritrassi dal suo inganno; il dolore bussò alla mia porta, e io ebbi paura; l'ambizione mi chiamò, ma io temetti gli imprevisti. Malgrado tutto avevo fame di un significato nella vita. E adesso so che bisogna alzare le vele e prendere i venti del destino, dovunque spingano la barca. Dare un senso alla vita può condurre a follia ma una vita senza senso è la tortura dell'inquietudine e del vano desiderio è una barca che anela al mare eppure lo teme.

"The Hill"

Where are Elmer, Herman, Bert, Tom and Charley,

The weak of will, the strong of arm, the clown, the boozer, the fighter?

All, all are sleeping on the hill.

One passed in a fever,

One was burned in a mine,

One was killed in a brawl,

One died in a jail,

One fell from a bridge toiling for children and wife—

All, all are sleeping, sleeping, sleeping on the hill.

Where are Ella, Kate, Mag, Lizzie and Edith,

The tender heart, the simple soul, the loud, the proud, the happy one?—

All, all are sleeping on the hill.

One died in shameful child-birth,

One of a thwarted love,

One at the hands of a brute in a brothel,

One of a broken pride, in the search for heart’s desire;

One after life in far-away London and Paris

Was brought to her little space by Ella and Kate and Mag—

All, all are sleeping, sleeping, sleeping on the hill.

Where are Uncle Isaac and Aunt Emily,

And old Towny Kincaid and Sevigne Houghton,

And Major Walker who had talked

With venerable men of the revolution?—

All, all are sleeping on the hill.

They brought them dead sons from the war,

And daughters whom life had crushed,

And their children fatherless, crying—

All, all are sleeping, sleeping, sleeping on the hill.

Where is Old Fiddler Jones

Who played with life all his ninety years,

Braving the sleet with bared breast,

Drinking, rioting, thinking neither of wife nor kin,

Nor gold, nor love, nor heaven?

Lo! he babbles of the fish-frys of long ago,

Of the horse-races of long ago at Clary’s Grove,

Of what Abe Lincoln said

One time at Springfield.

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This poem introduces the collection “Spoon River Anthology” by Edgar Lee Masters.

I could not run or play in boyhood.

In manhood I could only sip the cup,

Not drink-

For scarlet-fever left my heart diseased.

Yet I lie here

Soothed by a secret none but Mary knows:

There is a garden of acacia,

Catalpa trees, and arbors sweet with vines--

There on that afternoon in June

By Mary's side--

Kissing her with my soul upon my lips

It suddenly took flight.