#sponge's thoughts

Well, yesterday wasn't much of anything special. I had a lot of time to write, and I DID get a lot done (3.2k to be exact), but i took so long to do it, that it didn't feel like much of a W. That, and I was suffering from some depression, as previously stated. I was also struggling hard with my rewatch. See, I had to do all 10 episodes of YFNSM, and I am only finished them up now. I still have Deadpool, a what if episode, and the first episode of Iron Fist for today too. Yikes.

Why was I depressed, you might ask? All kinds of reasons, some of which are too heavy to get into here. Mostly? I'm lonely, I'm a little resentful of myself, having some self worth struggles. I miss my sister a lot, we've had some time struggles lately (tho they should be getting better soon, and today we got to talk a lot more, mostly). Plus I was thinking back to my cancer, it's been two years since I was feeling the pains that led to the diagnosis. It's... Hard to think about.

On the plus side, been having some great dinners lately! Had some great chicken things (idk what to call em), salad, vine leaves and pasta yesterday, and today I had sandwiches with hummus, shishkebab and fries!

Another plus side: the writing went better today! Got it done earlier and it flowed well too, 3.1k this time. Idk if I can finish the chapter on saturday (which will make it 3 weeks since last update, sorry), but it's either done then or sunday. Not tomorrow, it's my dad's birthday so I'm taking a day off.

What else... Well, tomorrow is D23, which is exciting for me, as a huge Disney nerd! Hopefully lots of great MCU and Disney animation news! Fingers crossed for Zootopia 3 and X-Men cast!

Oh, yes, and last night there was a Manchester United game! For those who don't know, I LOVE football, I am a football freak. Could tell you hundreds of player names. United is my team (they've been crap for years, so expect a lot of moaning). We had a pre-season game, which is kinda whatever, but hey, like with a franchise, you always there, even when it's boring. We drew 1-1 against Leeds (a big rival) and then beat them on penalties, so that was nice!

Yesterday was pretty interesting and fun, though! It was my cousin's 11th birthday, and while I have... Complicated relationships with my extended family, the lil cousins are all right. We first had to deal with some stuff concerning my brother, who's going to Poland soon, gonna mostly be there for a while. It's an odd feeling for sure, but one I'm mostly used to. Once we dealt with that (and I bought some early Christmas presents for my sister and a dear friend of mine), we went to get my grandma out of her senior home, for a quick trip to the hospital to check something (I think it had to do with her legs but I'm not quite sure). I... Can't sugarcoat it, hate my grandma, she's a piece of work (seriously, she's mean and vile and cruel, she's not a sweet old grandma), but that part went by fast, thankfully.

We then had an impromptu visit to the park, where I played some football with my other young cousin, who's quite the sweet boy. He seems to really love me and my brothers, and it's easy to hang with him. My body is still regaining its strength two years past cancer (the anniversary of my diagnosis is soon), but I do feel like I'm getting stronger all the time. Just gotta keep trucking. Regardless, it was fun to play, and I even had one of the best experiences in life: a coca cola in the summer after working hard. Best one I've had in ages, ngl.

After that, we went to a pancake/waffle house type restaurant, where I got this kitkat pancake!

Look at that monster.

I also had a great chocolate milkshake so that was nice!

After that I got quite sleepy so I napped in the car while we drove to my aunt's house, where the cousins live. It's their new place, they moved into it after the divorce, so it was my first time there. Decent place, if a tad small. I don't know how I'll ever live in an apartment, unless it was with my sister. I don't mind sharing small spaces with her.

I was worried because I was tired and because it was getting late that it would not be fun, but it was, actually! We played Kahoot (I didn't win but it was still fun, had to ace questions about how well we know the cousins), then this word game (idk what it's called in, like, America) where you have to guess words while your teammate guides you by gesturing at the word with other words... Idk how to describe it but I was excellent at it.

For those who remember my shortlived Marvel sideblog, I am a BIG MCU fan and defender, and I've been on a rewatch since April of every single project in chronological order. Yesterday (thanks to delays, I'm supposed to do 3 eps a day at most) I had to do the final 5 eps of Luke Cage S1 (and today thanks to delays I have all 10 eps of Your Friendly Neighborhood Spider-Man), but I managed to do the Luke Cage eps, and it was pretty fun! It was my first time watching, very solid, consistent show! Gonna be crazy to watch an entire 10 episode cartoon in one day today, but we'll see how I manage! I'm also writing SC of course, I recently wrote about 2.7k as a starter for the second part of the Ashley Q chapter, went well, and more is coming today, a lot more I feel, I have loads of ideas!