#spockward

Gumball guy's pretty cute.

I've always had trust issues, I'll sometimes even think good friends despise me when of course they don't. I just don't understand how they could like me so of course it must all be lies, right? It's nonsense of course and I know that now but this is a moment of clarity so it's just nice to write this stuff down. I'm still looking for that person I can trust, I think. "Easy" really is a good way to put it...easy but yet not easy at all. To resign myself to this endless daydream or to wake up and face reality...of course there's only one choice that makes sense but I've been dragging my feet for so long (loooong) that it makes it hard to see any real hope no matter how much I want it. I try to put on a strong face when others need help because I honestly want to help them but it's also to try to find myself again. I just look at myself and see a thing and I have rashes on my face from messing with it, trying to feel some comfort again in my own skin by trying to shape it into something I can remember. I just don't even feel like a person anymore and I can't stand it.

Thank you. I have been getting help but honestly it isn't enough. I'm so sick of this though, I just want to change at this point. I'm actually looking into changing psychiatrists right now.

All jokes aside, thanks dude. I'll try to be safe. Knowing my luck, however, something is bound to happen. I also think the setting is kinda eerie since it's happening the night of the 'blood moon'.

hehe thanks becac. i miss your face and your bobos lol;)