#spnvan 2018

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JARED & JENSEN aka J2 ✨ Ok story time! This is a retake! I don't have the original. Here’s the story. I had a photo on my phone that I wanted to do. I showed the handler, she asked me a few minor questions about who would be standing where. We got that sorted out, and I walked over to them. She showed them the photo, and I asked to be the in middle.  Handler: So Jared, you're on that side.  Jared: *looks at the photo* Okay, yeah, I can try.  Jensen: No. He's not doing that, I’m sorry but no.  Chris: Yeah, no he can’t because -- Jared, cutting Chris off: Well I can try Jensen: No!  Jared: *turns to me* I’m so sorry, I hurt my back earlier, and I don't think I can do it. I’m really sorry Me: Oh my god! No that's ok! Are you okay? I’m sorry for asking.  Jared: I’m alright, don’t worry. I just shouldn't. Me: Could you just squish me tight then please? Jensen: That we can do!  Chris takes the photo Jared: Sorry about your photo Jensen: Thanks for understanding. Me: No that’s ok! Thank you guys so much. ~~~ When I went to pick up my print from the op room, I immediately didn't like my photo. Chris managed to catch me talking to Jared. I asked the volunteers about getting a retake. She went and talked to Chris, and told me to come back after last call for J2M photos. So I did. I had to give the op room volunteer my original photo as a ticket, and I had to explain why I was getting a retake. When it was my turn, I walked back up to them as Misha was walking away. Me: Sorry about this Jared: Don’t worry!  Me: Could y'all just hug me again please? Jensen: Of course Chris took the photo, and I moved to walk away. Jensen *doesn't move his hand from my shoulder, and looks right at me* Thank you sweetheart Jared smiles Me: I love you both so much I got the retake photo back, and my heart kinda broke. Because you can see in the way he’s standing, that Jared is in pain. But he’s still out there, doing photos with fans, because he loves doing it. His dedication to us, and to giving us a good experience, is something that I’ll never forget. 

Bonus: Misha bruised the fuck out of my wrist.

MISHA COLLINS ✨ Okay, there’s a story to this one so buckle up.  I helped a friend with GISH waaay back in 2013. It ended up being for an item that Misha was present for. He was happy to take photos with anyone who asked, so I found the courage to go up to him. Someone took the photo, and handed my phone back to me. But it was blurry. And I was disappointed. AND HE NOTICED. So he told me to come find him again later, and we’ll do a re-do. When I found him again, he remembered me. I managed to get the right words out to tell him I was back for another photo because the first one didn't turn out. He smiled all big, and said “Yes of course!” and PULLED ME INTO HIS CHEST. All I remember from that photo being taken was “Wow he smells good” and how teeny tiny his waist was.  FLASH FORWARD 5 YEARS It’s time for my photo op with him. I give my phone to the handlers, and tell them I want to recreate that pose. She shows him, and according to my friend, looked “fond and reminiscent.”  I walk up to him. “Would it be okay if you wore these sunglasses too? Please?”  “Sure.”  He puts them on, grabs my wrist in such a firm grasp and, once again, PULLS ME INTO HIS CHEST. The camera clicks, he pulls off the sunglasses to hand them back, and smiled really small and cute. I tell him “Thanks, I love you so much” and walk away.  When I went to get the photo signed, he looked up at me and smiled that lil smile again. I thanked him, and told him how much I loved him. He drew a little heart, and I almost cried. 

JENSEN ACKLES ✨ I was so nervous for this one. It was my first op of the day. But I had a plan.  I walked up to him. Said hello. He smiles, that bastard, and says “Hi there.” I *think* he had his hand on my shoulder for this part, but I’m really not sure.  “Could you please just give me a really really squishy hug, and could you also please smile really really big?” “Yeah, I can do that”  He pulled me in so tight. I remember feeling his arms across my back. I squeezed him as tight as I could, and I felt his jaw against my forehead.  “Thank you so much, I love you, thank you” “Thanks sweetheart, you too.” My friends were in line behind me, and I legit did not even wait for them. I basically ran out of the op room and sat down on the floor against the doors. I was crying from the moment he called me ‘sweetheart’. I sat on the floor and cried for 15 minutes. Like, full sobbing. Like, couldn't even talk to my friends sobbing. It was just so overwhelming. I had been wanting to meet him for years and years and it finally happened. 

JARED PADALECKI ✨ I honestly felt a little bad about what I wanted to ask him for my op after finding out his back was bothering him. But after seeing him for my J2 ops, I felt more confident talking to him than I did with Jensen earlier. Me: Hi again. Could you please just give me a really really squishy hug? As best as you can. And could you also smile really big for me please?  Jared: Yeah! Absolutely! Come here *pulls me into a hug* Me: Thank you so much, I love you Jared: I love you too

I’ll be at VanCon this weekend, so if you happen to see me, feel free to say hi!