i have held you above the embers until my arms ached, for the hope of a quick kiss in return. i taste the ash at the back of my throat and see the charcoal under my nails. i dug for you, pulled out my heart and propped it up in the fire. use the poker to look through the folds, there's something good in here. in you. i just have to find it. i have frozen the remains to hide in my chest again, shoved it in messily until my blood replaced yours on my hands. breathed deep. remembered what clear air felt like. you think i will let you back in my arms now that i have found a lake to drown in? burn burn burn
you say you didnโt mean to hurt me. i say, i mean to. // a.e.











