#spieishere

spieishere

We may not be together anymore, but you sure fill my dreams at night with your ever lasting impression. People say drugs are bad but they don’t have to be. They made me who I am today. Stronger and along with the gift of being able to overcome anything. Not to judge. They bring you up. They drag you down. But in that moment you realize that you and only you can climb out of that hole you dug. You see the other side that most people are blind to. The fact that you can appreciate life because you know what it feels like to die. Have faith you don’t have to live in hell forever if choose to have the straight. It’s a battle everyday but damn is it an accomplishment every day. But I always remember where I came from. It’s my life and I don’t regret anything…

I'm at 59 days sober at the moment I just feel so tempted-so weak. It's like my addiction an sobriety are in my head battling to the death

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I'm sick of this post I make it over an over just as I do in my life of addiction...but this time Iv seen my friends fall to addiction.... They came up an told me they used.... An I was all messed up. I dipped my toes tell I was using everyday again. My friend was looking at me like id be proud. I just shut down. I tried to explain to him that using isnt cool. An I realized this isn't me anymore.... Flushed all my drugs. I just couldn't believe someone was idolizing me. When I'm in so much pain an it scared me I wish someone would of told me what was down that road of drugs. It made me think this is it. You can't do this anymore... Seeing it happening to my friend...it hurt an I feel like I'm scared of drugs I don't want to be this *cool person anymore* I want to be the guy that says no. The one that has sobriety... Those are the people I idolize there something to be proud of. I'm ready this time. I'm done living in darkness. Done hiding. No more. I'm ready to fight for sobriety! Thanks for reading :) Much love -Brian-

Well the kind of person who attracts me has a name. and he doesnt kinnnda attract me he really attracts me, in every single way. hes someone whos cute, daring but innocent, sweet and sincere, loyal, forgiving and overall the most amazing person i've met. i can talk to him for hours and spend an eternity with him but it only seems like a few minutes. he's everything ive ever looked for and more. I'm always going to love him, because you never just stop loving someone, its forever. i know you'll always be by my side, through thick and thin. i love you Brian Spieler<3