#spentcasing

god im so fucking lonely

my name is Ugly Roadside Dog they abandoned me on the side of the motorway it's raining and you won't even stop to take me to the shelter please hit me with your car so I can feel something touch me

I think I'm always gonna be a kid sitting on the floor in a dark room hearing people talk and laugh downstairs

I'm genuinely embarrassing. like existentially

every time I jerk off I rediscover the Hollow Empty Pit Of Despair that lives inside me and by rediscover I mean I trip and fall into it and break both my legs and arms and ribs and skull and slowly painfully bleed out and go cold and choke on every wheezing breath until I fall asleep. and then every morning I pretend it didn't happen

getting insta content labelled is so sad. Release Me

being an object is fun but I also wish I could be a real person worthy of interest and affection sometimes. unfortunately I am an object and not a person so it is impossible

sigh. I wish I felt attractive :(