we’re doing speech to text again because I don’t really feel like typing shit out. It’s making me think harder than I need to and I just need to type my thoughts out verbatim and I can’t do that if I’m actually driving you get it anyway I can’t pretend to be someone who I’m not. I try to put up this front let go. This is only ever gonna be this that I’m a fucking liar and that’s the first mistake people make by saying hello. It’s never gonna be this to me. It’s never gonna be that. How could it only ever be that?
maybe you see through that act maybe you do maybe you know why I need to put that front up put a game we’re both trapped in our own minds and I I don’t know and what’s true I’ll say that I’m angry. I’ll say that I’m resentful. That’s all true, but when I try to say that this is only going to mean this little to me ever that is a fucking lie it means so much for me to pretend to be someone i’m not, so how could it mean so little. to me maybe you see through that act maybe you do maybe you know why I need to put that front up put a game we’re both trapped in our own minds and I I don’t know
maybe you’ll never understand God I’m so tired of having to try to make you understand all this time just for you to not be able to because I just isn’t how it works. You can’t make someone understand. Something understand experience understand a word a sentence when they don’t have something to apply it to how can I judge you really for how you decided to “sit in it”
