#spectacularnow

It's funny how things could change over just a second, a day, a month or even within a year. As we grow old, we notice so many changes in our lives. Your favorite tv shows that we used to watch seemed changed, the habits that we usually do during semestral breaks are archaic, things we buy doesn't seem so important anymore. It's like we've changed into a different person. But we we're just growing, we we're just finding meaning in everything that we do because we want something that could matter, that find who we truly are.

The burning passion that we had was going downhill. Going back and forth, because we seem lost in track. Finding that burning passion for one last time, finding that same version of yourself seemed so difficult. But we know within ourselves we have found that little puzzle, we are all just afraid of what's coming after that. That if we chose to take the risks, Will it be worth it? Will it changed everything? Or regrets will haunt us forever?

There are so many questions yet we are not doing it, we haven't even tried it. Because at the end of the day, life is short. Make the most out of everything. It must be tiring doing the same thing over and over again. It must be tiring to do things you don't want to do. It must be tiring wearing masks. It must be tiring pretending that we're okay, that we are someone shoulder to cry on but we are the one who needed a shoulder to cry on. We are so dependable to the point of we don't have someone who we can depend on. We all want to be free, to be follow the path that we want. Follow our deepest desires, of what our heart really wants.

To someone reading this message, I just want to say that no matter what people tell you, no matter how many times people their opinions. Always remember that its your life, all your decisions doesn't need someone's opinion because it will all fall onto you. You will be the one to decide, not your family, not your friends or boyfriends or girlfriends, but you. They are just guardian angels to guide you, not to push you what to do.

If you want to do something, do not be afraid always go for it. Failure will be alongside but failure is part of growing. You will continue to grow, just like a flower that keeps on blooming, that keeps on pouring seeds.

Do it now, because maybe its your time.

         Halfway through the film, I had thought that I wouldn’t like it so much. Well, it was because my initial impression on the film was that it would just show how this happy-go-lucky guy with vices suddenly falls in love with a brilliant girl with such kindness that he apparently doesn’t have. Simply, I had expected the overused “bad-meets-good-then-love-does-its-magic” kind of plot. Although that happened in the ending, it turned out that the movie had more than just a cliché love story.

           Let me describe both characters. Sutter Keely sort of represents the stereotypical happy-go-lucky adolescent who goes to parties, drinks and desires to have fun all the time. Afraid of facing the common problems that can happen through socializing with people, such as hurting them, getting hurt, letting people down and failing, he runs away from them by trying not to feel them. He lives every day by focusing on what brings him pleasure and by living in the moment, free from worries about his future. On the other hand, Aimee Finicky, who helped Sutter after he’d passed out from his hangover one day, is a sweet, innocent teenager who takes schooling seriously and thinks about plans for the future. They epitomize the two major types of teenagers based on mindset about the future, and I think it was wise that the lovebirds were characterized in opposite ways.

           Having Sutter meet a girl who lives her life differently from him showed how the way he deals with his doesn’t really do him good contrary to how he thinks it does. Because he embraces only the happiness that comes from every moment of his life, it ironically drops him down to his misery until he is left with nothing. He went out with Aimee initially intending to give her an experience that he’d thought would give her a fulfilled teenage life. After accomplishing that objective, he was supposed to let her go. However, Aimee fell for him and he gradually did too but he also believed that he didn’t deserve her for she was innocent. With that, they had fought the night Aimee got into an accident. After her recovery, they went back to normal though and looked forward to going to Philadelphia, according to her plan for the both of them. Unfortunately, things turned out the way I didn’t expect them to but the way reality made it -- with Sutter not coming with her to Philadelphia without even giving her a notice.

 Suddenly frustrated with how it affected him, Sutter eventually realizes that he’d screwed up as he said in his essay for college admission. He realized that by shutting out the pain, he shut out everything. With his optimistic self still alive, he decided to look forward to another now, which refers to tomorrow, when he can start over and continue living with a better perspective of life. As a result, the film ends with him crossing paths with Aimee outside a college in Philadelphia.

The Spectacular Know

Filmnya ringan, ceritanya dekat dengan kehidupan sehari-hari dan lebihnya lagi maknanya dalem. Aimee dan Sutter tokoh utama dari film ini merupakan karakter umum yang kita jumpai sehari-hari, bahkan malah mungkin adalah hampir cerminan diri kita sendiri. Konflik yang diceritakan di dalamnya pun sangat dekat dekat dengan kehidupan kita dan bisa dialami oleh siapa pun ga terbatas pada usia remaja sesuai cerita tapi juga diumur matang.

Life meaning. Love meaning. Family matters. Well, Sutter yang carefree ketemu Aimee yang well-plannerd, a geek, not popular, just live the life and dream big. Sementara Sutter tahu cara menjadi dirinya sendiri dan hidup hampir tanpa beban (dari luar seperti itu, padahal dalemnya tetep dia punya beban. Setiap orang punya part yang mungkin cuma dia yang tahu) sedangkan Aimee suka baca buku dan tahu apa yang dia mau. Somehow, dua orang itu get along. Sutter yang awalnya sekedar berniat “bantu” Aimee untuk bisa menikmati hidup, jadi “terjebak” dengannya. Sementara Aimee yang selama hidupnya jarang bergaul dengan laki-laki, easily falling for him. Well, tentunya Sutter freaks out and got his distance for Aimee, sampai akhirnya dia dibilangin sama sahabatnya Aimee kalo dia memang cuma penasaran ya itu ga adil buat Aime and it works. In the end, mereka bukan orang yang sama dengan saat mereka ketemu pertama kali. Keduanya saling mendewasakan, dan memaknai hidup dengan lebih baik dengan caranya masing-masing.

I’m not ever try drinking or anything like that. More or less, tokoh Aimee itu agak-agak mirip. Always on track, and never slip to the sideways. Well, i’m a Asian Version of Aimee lah, my parents would kill me if i even try to bring boys to my rooms or not being home at 8 pm or drinking. Haha. Saya pernah ketemu sama sosok seperti Shutter ini, yup, trouble signs at the very beginning, tapi memang tipe bad-boys gini entah bagaimana selalu berhasil “mencuri” perhatian dari para kaum hawa. Sekalipun akhir kebanyakannya udah jelas, nyapuin serpihan hati dan ngumpulin sisa-sisa perasaan (ceilah) haha. They know how to live without fear, and we are willing to enjoy that excitement. 

And that kind of boys are everywhere. Tipe-tipe kaya gini ahli banget bikin penasaran, dan biasanya kalo sudah terbalik kita yang dibuat penasaran, eh dia tanpa permisi langsung hilang. Hayoo ngaku, semua pasti pada pernah nemu kan tipe-tipe begini? Life happens.