#speck case

my family uttered this gem last night: "you're not doing anything to make yourself feel better, you're always sick."

LIKE????? do you not think that if i could eat without pain and nausea i'd pick that? do you not think that if i could eat without nearly shitting my pants 20 minutes later i'd pick that?

i mean they're right, i'm always sick and i never feel good, but it's not like i'm just wallowing in it. i can't eat much anymore. i've been trying to exercise but usually moving around HURTS.

i've got a low-grade fever and chills most of the time, my body aches all over, my stomach feels like something's digging a hole in the lining all of the time, i'm itchy and covered in splotchy dry skin patches, and i've been getting migraines again. there hasn't been a medication i've taken yet that's helped.

but yes, definitely what i need from my family is to feel worse about myself because i'm experiencing all of these things.