#specialsomeone

As a child I never obsessed over a princess or a fictional character, or even a colour. I liked everything the same, and by that I mean not that much. I never had a favourite stuffed animal, I never had a favourite shirt, and I certainly never had any best friends. In my eyes everyone I met was just a shallow person, it didn't matter if I didn't know what that meant, I just didn't like people that much. 

So I started looking for places I could belong to. I would join random fandoms and I started making friends. And they were able to fill the void and appease the loneliness I was feeling, but the connections I formed with all that wonderful people were never enough. 

This loneliness was slowly consuming me, not even my family knew how to make me feel better. I started shutting everyone out and tried my best to ignore the hole I felt growing inside my chest. I had stopped trying to find friends or ways to feel better and started focusing in school, books and other things to distract myself. That was until I met you.

You with your beautiful eyes and smile that could light up a room instantly. You and your ability to make everyone feel a little bit less weird. You and your soft voice that could calm me down before an exam.

I don't remember the first time I met you, I wish I did. I wish I could remember what you made me feel when you first noticed me or the first time we talked. We sort of became friends through other friends but we had already known of each other for what felt like our entire lives. We went to the same school our entire lives and it was quite small. So no one was a stranger to anyone. But we didn't really get to know each other until we were just a bit older than children... I think. Everything was so long ago and at the same time I  can still feel you sitting next to me, talking about a new book you discovered or what happened in the latest episode of Glee.

You are still so important to me and I don’t think you’ll ever stop being such a huge part of my life. You helped me find myself. You are the reason I am still fighting through everything life has put me through. And you don’t even know it.

So this is my way of telling you everything I feel. Of telling you how much you mean to me. Even if you never read it.

With these Valentine Red Velvet Cupcakes, you can share a sweet treat with your loved ones on February 14. They are a deep red color and feel like velvet. On top, there is a smooth cream cheese frosting. Whether you're celebrating with a special someone or just because you love yourself, these cupcakes will make you smile.

Ingredients: 1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour. 1 1/2 cups granulated sugar. 1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder. 1/2 teaspoon baking soda. 1/2 teaspoon salt. 1/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder. 1 cup buttermilk. 1/2 cup vegetable oil. 2 large eggs. 2 tablespoons red food coloring. 1 teaspoon vanilla extract. 1 teaspoon white vinegar. Cream cheese frosting store-bought or homemade. Valentine's Day-themed sprinkles optional.

Instructions: Warm up your oven to 350F 175C and put cupcake liners in a muffin tin. Sift the flour, sugar, baking powder, baking soda, salt, and cocoa powder together in a large bowl. Put the eggs, red food coloring, vanilla extract, white vinegar, and buttermilk in a different bowl and mix them together. Slowly add the wet ingredients to the dry ones and mix them together until they are just mixed. Be careful not to mix too much. Fill each cupcake liner about two thirds of the way to the top with batter. After the oven is hot, bake the cupcakes for 18 to 20 minutes, or until a toothpick stuck in the middle comes out clean. First, let the cupcakes cool in the pan for a few minutes. Then, move them to a wire rack to cool completely. Place the cream cheese frosting on top of the cupcakes once they are completely cool. A piping bag can be used to add some style. You can add Valentine's Day-themed sprinkles if you want to make them look even better. Give your Valentine's Day red velvet cupcakes to your guests and enjoy them!

Prep Time: 20 minutes

Cook Time: 18 minutes