A Message to My Followers...
As you may know, I have been in the dark for a while. My posts have gotten limited and my reviews have shortened with the exception of the ones with a video work. I have been exploring myself and my work ethic for a while. I have decided that things will be different from this point forward.
Before I explain what changes, I want to quickly talk about myself. It’s been nearly five years since I opened a tumblr account. The main reason is to write and connect with people over online. Granted, I wouldn’t mind much if no one was going to read my work, but I feel relaxed and joy writing it. As life goes on, so does people.Â
When I opened the account, I was on a part-time job and had way more free time than today. I’m not hungry for money. In fact, I often think money makes the world go round, but sadly, this is how life works now and we have to deal with it. Once I got full-time, it was going normally as possible; like a longer length of my former part-time job. That is until I developed more interests towards other materials.
While I enjoyed writing, it does take a lot of time away from having the time to do other subjects. I got to the point that I felt like I was letting people down. Basically, I probably stressed myself that I begin to fall asleep more often than before. Heck, even someone is tracking me with “punishment.” Haha. Bottom line, I was overworking myself for no reason.
My mind is filled with plans that I wish time would stop, so I can work on them with no worries. I was finally told to take a break. I felt like I was in a race with no one but me racing. Who am I trying to please? Myself? I’m no egotistical like I don’t brag about my opinion matters more than yours or gloat about my accomplishments over anyone; perhaps it’s more about getting the job done.
To be honest, I have myself to blame for. One of my weaknesses is how many times I have delayed my work/hobby and when I finally look back at them, I have the need to get it done first and foremost. This could sway me from my friends and others; that’s very troubling. It’s at this point that I’m not doing it as a hobby; I was doing it as a job with only pay of accomplishment within my mind.
I’m going to take things slow and don’t rush things nor gather so many to work on them later. I should have taken my time with them; instead, I was gaining stress over them. It’s my fault and has nothing to do with my followers. It’s just me overthinking in a negative light. I’m sorry, everyone.
Now what about my tumblr page? I do like to write but as of now, I want to take things easier. Therefore, the length of a short review will now be the length for the review. In other words, all of them will be shortened. To be honest, I’m more relaxed and feel enthusiastic about writing my opinion. I may miss out other materials, but at least I’ll get my message across more or less. It’s probably the fact that I’m in this state now that I can’t write at full length without feeling exhausted, hence why you don’t see my review until a couple of days later.
The real kicker is the ones that come with the video review. This was hard on me but I have no choice. For those who have a video review, they will no longer have a written post. The affected series are:
Attack on Titan
My Hero Academia
Gintama
Kingdom
Tokyo Ghoul:re
It does pain me that I have to resort to video only and not have a written post. I don’t want to force anyone to watch my videos for my own benefit. I mean it is welcomed to anyone who would like to watch and hear on my thoughts. In the past, I was actually writing the review before making the video, which is very time consuming. Not only that but I was reading off from it. In other words, to make a video, I have to write one first. It’s true that it is helpful for a video and what not; however, I was lacking energy because of how it comes off as just reading.
In other cases, I will put more energy to it because my priority is strengthening with its purpose and quality. However, in a weekly basis, I eventually get burnt out and couldn’t be as energetic. It only hits me that I am engaged when it comes from the heart or mind. I realized it when I was working on the podcast with my friends. I felt the thrill and passion when discussing about a topic. I want to relive those. So after I was done with Gintama Chapter 662 Review, I sensed the passion. Not to mention, it cuts down my time and allow me to calm and rest easy, rather than panicking over it.
Will there be a time that I revert back to the old method? Probably. Right now, this is how it’s going to be. I won’t blame you if you stop following me because of this. I’m sorry, but I have to take things into consideration on my benefit. I am one guy that is handling a lot that should have been resorted to plenty. In due time, I want to get more involved with everyone in here and elsewhere. I managed to accomplish other things that won’t be distracting me for a long time. There will be more content in the near future.
That’s all I have to share. Thank you and have a good day.
