#spaceboy rambles

uhhhh....

Creating things can be hard. The struggle is definitely real. Lately I've been struggling really hard to put pen to paper on any project, forcing myself is the only way it gets done and I'm unhappy with the finished products.

All I know and keep telling myself is that I have to keep going. In a world where creativity is slowly being snuffed out by people with money I keep pushing, keep trying, because even if I'm unhappy with the end result, I made something.

I put in the time and effort to MAKE something with my own hands.

as much as I love the pairing of newbie guard x unid, the idea of shipping ANY character who's been mindhacked with anyone feels a bit. wrong? In a way?

Because yes technically they are still capable of consent, but it's not really THEM y'know???? like. would the pre-mindhack Unid be willing to kiss that twink? I dunno! Honestly I don't think he would be

They're cute together but it feels a little bit uncanny, especially if you were to ship post-mindhack unid with post-mindhack newbie. Because that's two lobotomized people basically.

idk. it's late I need sleep uhhhhhh one more thing

He plays games very quickly, and tends to read dialogue very fast as well, which leads to him not processing shit all the way sometimes. He went straight to the goal, and paid little to no mind to side things.

This led to something very interesting!

bubble bubble toil and trouble uh

This is kind of a vent???? Post?? I’m just frustrated

I haven’t written anything substantial in months and it’s really like weighing on my. Soul??? For lack of a better analogy. I wanna write, I like writing, but this creative deficit is so bad and long that I’m considering taking down the fic request post I made lmao. I just don’t have the energy as of late

Idk why I’m even posting about this. maybe it’s because I also feel like I should post more???? Ughhhh my brain is weird

Anyway I’ve been into ava/avm lately so maybe I should make some posts about that. People seem to like my takes on media usually