Mine
feelings are the most confusing part of this universe
i think i understand having communication problems uk
u r not able to express what u feel mostly, heart stuff
because u feel that that emotion is mine
uk it is something i possess
something i do not want to share
or something i will never want to
it is mine not anyone elses
i think for that trust is required
being vulnerable is not a fight about others
it is a fight about our minds
with ourselves
My thoughts, emotions, anger, reasons for getting angry is mine uk
it is mine and i am really scared of letting it go
uk the thought of other people misunderstanding it misusing it is probably my biggest fear
after i share something
i do not feel relief
i feel like i have lost something
i am still trying to understand why
am i “overthinking”
i hate that feeling uk
i genuinely do
that is why i do not want to share
is it a crime
is it a boon over any relationship i have or might have in future
i do not know what i seek
i do know one thing i am scared of people
i am scared of letting them know my feelings
that is why is never say uk, “i like you”
or even
“yes, i would like to be in a relationship with you”
it scares me
sharing myself
is it narcisism or is it something else
i cannot quite put into words
feelings are confusing
but interpreting them brings relief
a sort of understanding in life
but then people say do not make a checklist based on ur understandings
why not?
if that is what i want
i sometimes feel that i am incapable of love
i do think major portion is because of my insecurities about my body
but i feel some of it might be because i think i will just end up ruining it
something so special
i know every teenager thinks like this
but it confuses me
Love shouldn’t be this confusing right?
or is it?
