#sorting myself

Begin the nerd rant. So first, I’ll explain why I’m so torn up about this.

Recently, I went to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter (TM) in Florida and hOLY CRAP. But the point that it was AWESOME and I ALMOST CRIED is not the main point. Main point is, this gal KNEW she was gonna get some house colors, you know what I’m saying? So, I had to know FOR SURE which Hogwarts house I identified with the most before I spent upwards of 40 dollars on a sweatshirt (there was A PERFECT REPLICA OF THE SWEATERS THE QUIDDITCH PLAYERS WEAR AND WOW WAS I TEMPTED but unfortunately exact replicas cost more than one of my textbooks, plus I was afraid I wouldn’t give it the use it deserved etc. etc.). 

So, I did a lot of thinking and decided it was Hufflepuff. I was a ‘Poof. So I went on down and bought my sweater and my Fleur Delacour wand and drank some heckin butterbeer and LIVED MY LIFE. 

It was all dandy after I got back, up until this moment. I rediscovered the fact that you can find out your Patronus on Pottermore and of course, I forgot my last password so I made a new account and had to take the tests again (by the way my Patronus is a St. Bernard and :’) ). 

I got Ravenclaw for my Hogwarts house, which I wasn’t really surprised by because I’ve always been only slightly more ‘Poof than ‘Claw. And I got Thunderbird for my Ilvermorny house, which EXCITED me, cause I’ve always gotten Pukwudgie (with Thunderbird right behind) and I haven’t really identified with it. 

But, since I like to be completely right on whatever I do/say (I never really thought about myself as a perfectionist, but...), I began to, one, get very frustrated that I’d gotten Ravenclaw rather than Hufflepuff and over the possibility that I’d misjudged myself, and two, become very uneasy over the fact that I still share a lot of qualities with Pukwudgie and I don’t want to lie to myself, even if I don’t like the truth.

Fantasy world, yes, but also childhood. Stick with me folks.

So, I began self-analyzing. Here are my findings regarding which traits I share with the houses and which I do not, if you care to read them.

Hufflepuff: Not patient, or particularly down-to-earth. Kind (I value kindness the most, which should be a dead giveaway but it’s not, you know?), loyal, hard-working. Protective, honest. MINI RANT: People think ‘Poofs are pure beans, which we are, but dang I’ll challenge anyone who intends to hurt others, or is being ignorant, or selfish, or cowardly-- include myself y’all, and I’ll never back down from a challenge, even if it’s a passive aggressive, indirect challenge. Trouble is, I don’t know if this is a ‘Poof trait or not. ALSO, I’m an INFP, also known as Introverted As Heck, so ‘Poofs can be introverts. 

Ravenclaw: Witty, eccentric. Open-minded, curious, clever, desires knowledge, but only the knowledge I want to study. Dreamer, creative. 

I don’t know as much about the Ilvermorny houses, but here goes.

Thunderbird: Adventurous-- I would love nothing more than a good adventure --but it’s hard for me to get started/know where I want to adventure. I’m soulful, but I don’t really identify with it. I’m very temperamental though.

Pukwudgie: I AM ALL ABOUT HEART (for instance, my heart wants me to adventure-- you see my problem?). Heart is who I am, but I’m not a healer in the medical sense. I’ll try my best in emergency situations, but I am Not the person anyone should seek out in emergencies. I take care of all my people emotionally the best I can, and I will always try my best to give new people a chance. The reason I’m so opposed to being in this house is cause of the origin story J.K. gave us for Ilvermorny, in which I don’t like the Pukwudgie, and even though it’s said the creators’ personalities shaped the houses, I don’t know if I want to be represented by the Pukwudgie. I’m sounding more and more like a Pukwudgie as I keep talking. 

The problem I have with all this is, like I said, I’m a perfectionist and I don’t like to sort myself into ‘Huffleclaw’, or one of those mixed houses. 

Anyway, writing this has brought up some new points for me, so #nerdrantdone