#sorryboutthis

Sorry Spectators, still getting upload errors and can’t post anything. I promise I’ll make it up to you soon once this delay gets resolved!

We grew up believing we were beautiful and around the time we hit middle school that idea of beauty our families rioted into our minds is long gone. Because the boys think we are to fat and the girls think we are to skinny and from that point on we will spend the rest of our lives trying to please everybody else because as they started listing off what they thought were or imperfections we started seeing them. We looked in the mirror and no longer saw beauty. In fact we looked in the mirror and we were disgusted by our own appearance but not because we believed we were ugly. Because we believed that they believed we were ugly. And yes then we started to believe it too. So we stopped eating and stopped studying. We sat there day by day thinking of all the ways to make ourselves more beautiful and when our hair fell out because of the malnutritment we had led our bodies into we smiled. Because now we can finally try any hair we wanted. Any hair that they thought was beautiful. And we felt so proud when the pain of hunger stopped because we weren't hungry anymore. No. We weren't hungry anymore. We were just dead......

Excuse. Fucking. You. Being a girl who reads books over going out a to a party, doesn't make you, in any sort of way, a better person. And me just clarify this all for you whiney sons of bitches. Reading books. Drinking some expensive ass tea (which tastes like fucking shit, mind you), over coke, pepsi etc, wearing jeans 24/7 instead of shorts, because 'youre not a whore', listening to 'old music' (which, in this case is any song that came out before 1995) over pop, metal, rap, because it's 'better' Not wearing any makeup, because you're 'all natural' I'm sorry if this hurts your feelings you precious princesses. Except I'm not. Reading books over going out, in no way makes you a better person. You think those girls have cakes their mascara over so much they can't pick up a nook? Think again That tea that you fuckign, idek what you classify yourselves as, drink. Is. Disgusting. Tastes like Satans piss. Next Wearing jeans over shorts? Because you aren't a whore. Mind you, these are the same people who say rape is wrong. And then saying you don't wear 'revealing clothes' because you're not a whore, is really hypocritical of you. Fair enough, wear jeans all you like, I get it, they're comfy. Just don't fucking say that people who do differently are whores. Choosing 'old' music over 'todays music' because it's better? That music, isn't fucking old. Old music is Mozart, Beethoven. What you're referring to is what they call 'this generations music' we, (anyone younger then, say, 18 (I don't.know the specifics)) is the next generation. Sit the fuck down. And this one bugs me the most. If you don't wear makeup, fine. Good for you, either you don't want to, you're attractive, or don't give a fuck. And I respect all of that. But if you say because you don't wear makeup you're 'all natural' kindly shoot yourself in the foot. Because that doesn't make you natural. You know what makes a woman natural? No man made products. This includes, deodorant, perfume, makeup, soap, toothpaste, toothbrushes, no shaving, plucking, waxing. So unless you do all of that, & whatever I left out. You. Are. Not. Natural. And if you do, I respect the fuck out of that. & this doesn't just go for girls, I've seen similar posts for guys aswell, but me, being a human female, chose to do one on my.own gender.

You never said "goodbye" You never said "I don't love you" You never said "I don't want to be with you anymore" You told me you loved me. You told me you wanted me Then you stopped talking to me. How the fuck to you expect me to ever get over you? How do you expect me to sleep at night?