"Taking Care of You" a jemily fanfic
Ok so I wrote a jemily fanfic. I've never written any fan fiction before and I'm not a very good writer in general but I wanted to write how I think the beginning of season 13 should go based on what we know. (Although I don't want it to be true I'm assuming that walker will be dead bc of Aisha's ig story and the fact that we know he won't be in the show.) ok so anyways here is my jemily story. Feel free to hate it feel free to love it I don't really care bc I really wrote it for me. . "I'll be fine Emily" "I know you will be, but let me help until you are. You know Will won't be much help and he'll have Henry to watch too" Emily was pretty much always making some snide remark about Will. At this point JJ was used to it and usually agreed "Considering we aren't living together anymore, he probably won't be." "JJ. Why didn't you tell me?" Emily said placing a gentle hand on JJ. "Wasn't your problem to deal with..." JJ's whole body warmed at the touch from Emily, but couldn't bring herself to look at her. "Ok, well now I'm definitely coming to help you." JJ decided not to argue. She new she could take care of herself but she also knew this was more about Emily than it was about her. Emily was being held down by the burden of the car crash. She blamed herself completely for it and for Stephen Walkers death. Even with Emily's strong compartmentalizations, JJ could tell that she was not ok. The weight of Emily's guilt hit her harder than any truck could. The two women walked out of the hospital to the cab they had called, but hesitated to get in. They had been in the hospital since the crash so the last cars they had been in were the now mangled SUVs and then ambulances. They both shuddered at the thought before Emily opened the door for JJ and they both got in. The ride back to JJ's house was long and quiet. Emily noticed that JJ was somewhat struggling to breath. She knew that it could be from her injuries but as she watched JJ she soon realized she was having and anxiety attack. It was a feeling Emily knew all too well. It was like getting too much air and not enough air at the same time. Emily reached over and grabbed JJ's hand and gave it a squeeze to bring her back down to reality and remind her to breath. JJ snapped her head to Emily at the touch, and then relaxed after realizing what had happened. She gave a half smile to Emily. "This ok?" The cab driver's voice snapped them both back to reality and they realized they had arrived at JJ's house. Emily payed the man and thanked him before getting out. They walked up to JJ's house. JJ in front and Emily behind just incase JJ were to fall. Emily would always be there to catch her. They walked in to the quiet house. Emily assumed the boys were with their father, wherever that was. Emily went to the kitchen and got them both glasses of water. They weren't allowed to drink alcohol until their concussions were cleared. Which was hard, especially for Emily who longed to drown her sorrows. JJ and Emily sat on the couch just slightly touching. Just needing the strength of the feeling of another human, not that either of them had any strength to give. JJ looked at Emily who was clearly in another world. JJ watched as the tears formed in the corner of Emily's eyes but she quickly blinked them away "Em, you know you can't blame yourself" "And why can't I? I'm supposed to be in charge of this team. To keep them safe. Walker had a family. And because of me, they no longer have him. I endangered the entire team because I didn't think far enough ahead." At this point Emily was a sobbing mess. JJ had seen her cry before and it was one of her least favorite sights, but she had never seen her in this state before. JJ shuddered at the heartbreak she felt for her friend but Emily had let her walls down for JJ, something she never did. So JJ had to help her. "We all go out there knowing we may never come back. There is no way you could have known Scratch would be that ahead of the game. You are not responsible for Walker's death or any of our injuries." JJ grabbed Emily's face to make her look her in the eyes, "you have to listen to me, ok?" Emily nodded in understanding with tears rolling down her face. JJ grabbed Emily and held her tight as Emily continued to cry. JJ's touch calmed her and soon enough she had completely relaxed into JJ. Emily looked up and smiled at JJ and laughed a little. "What?" JJ asked "I was supposed to be taking care of you" "You being here is enough for me because..." JJ trailed off realizing what she was about to say. She wasn't sure she was ready or that Emily was ready. Emily just stared at her with hope in her eyes. She thought that maybe JJ was about to say those 3 words. Words that she had longed to hear and longed to say to that beautiful blonde from the day she met her. "Because...?" "Because I love you, Emily, and I understand if you don't feel the same way and I'm sorry if this is awk-" "Jennifer," Emily cut her off, "I love you too" JJ's eyes lit up and her mouth hung slightly ajar before Emily captured her lips with a kiss. "Thank you, Em" "For what" "For taking care of me"
