#some things

Nevertel - Some Things

Why are you blocking your followers under the age of 16?

Knowing their age, of course.

And how was your day? Are you studying at school? Or are you old enough to be in school or university? And why aren't you sleeping at night??

Sorry for my curiosity

hi!

well, it is not that i actively go out of my way to block people. it's more so meant to be a warning that what i say and my preferred interactions, as an adult (21) (when did i get this old. what. i'm old !), are with an and for an older audience. i obviously, do not check every interaction ever - but if i know someone's age / can see someone's age especially if i posted something less minor appropriate and it gets interacted on - that will be a block for not only my own comfort but to prevent any trouble.

one big reason is ocd - i get intrusive thoughts of things that could happen or be assumed if minors interact with me. of course, old friends i have had who haven't aged up yet are alright and all. but strangers... can get complicated. (and also intrusive thoughts of me possibly being the one to hurt others. those thoughts scare me and im aware theyre not real and that i wouldnt act on them.)

it's mostly a thing for my own comfort to make my brain not implode, but also trying to be a little safer online. i do not post nsfw, but i may make the occasional suggestive joke or innuendo and whatnot i wouldn't be comfortable with a minor seeing. (which i tag as #suggestive so it can be blocked!)

and i know the start of my day was awful... but considering it's been a whole day and i'm sleepy and my Memory Issues, i do not remember well. i spent most of today doing pixelart! i may show progress in my next post :]

also, i am no longer a student (though, perhaps i really should've applied to another school, but i am not sure how well that would go for me considering i HIGHLY considered dropping out from HS...)

the explanation for all of these is unfortunately being unemployed! hard world out there. i got some slight hopes for myself recently, but it remains hard. not to go into a rant but i really do hate that the only way to seem valuable to society and your social circles is to "not be lazy" and find employment, though i do agree i should try more...

and i don't sleep at night because my sleep schedule is awful! also, residing in europe and having many american friends... means that hanging out with them means i gotta stay up! considering i don't do jack shit in my life, i can afford to stay up. at the cost of my sanity and wellbeing, but oh well!

i have slooowly been getting a bit better. headed to bed after this post, hopefully! (and i pray this time i will be able to sleep...)