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March 17th, 2023

45/50 days of productivity

Happy happy Friday all!! It is finally the weekend and I’m very relieved to say the least - this week has been a wild one. Today I got my chemistry test back and I got one of the highest scores in my class which is nice, I’m still really salty as I lost this one mark because it was ‘ambiguous’ but like it wasn’t. I also got my report and my form tutor report was really nice like I love that guy so much he’s great. Anyway today has not been the most productive but I felt the best so it’s still a win in my books :)

Tasks achieved:

Biological Molecules flashcards

Chemistry homework

🎧 Can’t Help Falling in Love - Christian Leave

“If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”

- the Gospel of Thomas, quoted in Nick Tosches, In The Hand of Dante, Little, Brown and Co., 2003, p. 105

Jacopo was a poet and a lawyer: a dangerous combination. And Dante, lest we forget, was but a man – a man who throughout his marriage to Jacopo’s mother, and throughout Jacopo’s own childhood, adolescence, and young manhood, went publicly about pulling his poetic prick and moaning like a ricchione over some dead twat he never even knew.

- Ibid., p. 366

There are those whom I love and who dwell within me. Some of them I have abandoned long ago. Others long ago have abandoned me. Yet they dwell in the love within me.

There are others, whom I never have abandoned, and who never have abandoned me.

For so long, the souls of others sustained me as much as my own soul did.

God, how I long now for them.

I must have them know that I breathe. I must allow them the knowledge that we still breathe together, apart as we may be. I can not let them know this only when I bring them to me to celebrate that befalling thing.

God, how I am blessed to have Giulietta, whose breath I can feel upon my skin and in my soul, and upon whose skin and into whose sweet soul I can breathe.

As for the rest of you, neither I nor those who dwell in the love within me desire or would abide your company. To you who in your fear, your stupidity, your jealousy, darkened the path of my previous life as you desecrated your own – and you know who you are – may your true death precede mine, as did the death of your souls.

In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost. Amen.

- Ibid., pp. 369-370