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It had been almost 5 weeks since you last talked 

You’d been up every night thinking about him, 

Your stomach in knots 

You missed him but 

You also loved him 

He’d texted you asking how are you but you’d leave him on read 

My stomach's in knots

I don't wanna talk

Let's just go to bed or something

Maybe it'll fix itself tomorrow

But I've been saying that like every night

You basically cried every night, yearning for him

You can't forget that night when you hooked up 

He looked at you with love 

You had never felt more loved

More wanted 

You had never felt that good,

You wanted more but it was too late 

He had fallen in love with another girl.

Now its a random friday, 

You were invited to a party, no biggie you had gone to millions 

But this one felt different 

Maybe because of what happened last time 

You walk into the party trying to forget everything.

Trying to forget him, trying to forget the pictures.

Trying to forget the fact that five weeks had passed and somehow you still loved him just as much.

You were talking to one of your friends when you heard a familiar voice behind you.

"y/n."

Your heart drops, You turn around; Shane, Of course.

"Can we talk?”

You stare at him.

"No."

"Please."

"No, Shane."

He sighs.

"Why have you been ignoring me?"

You laugh.

"Seriously?"

"Yes, seriously."

"You know why."

"No, I don't."

You stare at him in disbelief.

"The pictures.”

His face changes.

"That's what this is about?"

"y/n, you don't know the whole story."

"Then tell me."

He pauses.

You scoff.

"Exactly."

"It's complicated."

"Everything with you is complicated."

"Because you won't listen to me!"

Your eyes widen.

"Listen to you?"

"Yes!"

"You had five weeks to explain yourself!"

"I texted you!"

"And I didn't answer!"

"Exactly!"

"Because I was hurt!"

"So you decided to disappear?"

"I decided to give you what you clearly wanted!"

"What did I want?"

"you to be alone?”

The word comes out louder than you intended.

The people around you begin looking over.

You don't care.

He shakes his head.

"You don't get to decide what I want."

"And you don't get to decide what I feel!"

"I'm not!"

"Then why are you acting like I'm crazy for being upset?"

"I'm not saying you're crazy!"

"Then what are you saying?"

And I could try convincing you

They're just intrusive thoughts

But you've seen me truly happy

So you know right now, I'm not

He takes a breath.

"I'm saying you saw a few pictures and decided our entire relationship meant nothing."

Your chest tightens.

"Relationship?"

He freezes.

You laugh bitterly.

"That's what you called it?"

"I didn't mean"

"No, it's fine."

You wipe your eyes.

"Because apparently I didn't know what we were."

"Wow." he says 

"That's not what I meant."

"Then what did you mean?"

"I mean I was scared too."

"You were scared?"

"Yes."

"You think I wasn't?"

"I know you were."

"Then why didn't you choose me?”

His expression falls.

"I tried."

"No, Shane."

Your voice cracks.

"You texted me."

"You asked if I was okay."

"You didn't choose me."

He looks at you.

"I didn't know if you wanted me to."

You shake your head.

"That's the problem."

"What?"

"You always make me guess."

Silence.

"You told me you liked me."

"You made me believe there was something between us."

"You let me get attached."

"And then I had to find out you're kissing someone another bitch through a fucking gossip page.”

His jaw clenches.

"I wasn't kissing her because I wanted her."

"Then why?"

He doesn't answer.

"See?"

“y/n, are you inlove with me or something, your so pressed over a girl im with” 

Silence 

“y/n, dont tell me” 

“And what if i am” 

“I- i-” 

"That's all I needed to know."

You turn away.

He grabs your wrist lightly before you can walk away, then immediately lets go when you look back at him.

"Wait."

"No."

“Goodbye Shane." 

“y/n- “

"I never knew you."

"I never let myself fall for you."

His eyes widened.

"y/n, don't do this."

But you can't stop.

Because if you admit how much he means to you, you'll never be able to leave.

"I never thought about you."

"I never waited for your texts."

"I never stayed awake wondering if you were thinking about me."

A tear slips down your cheek.

"And that night..."

You stop yourself.

Your voice shakes.

"It never meant anything."

Shane looks at you like you've just taken the air out of the room.

“You know sometimes,” 

“Sometimes what?” 

You say through tears, slowly walking away. 

shane and y/n y/l/n were at sal's house party he invited shane and y/In (ofc), his friends, and his band. both shane and y/n both brought their own friends ( eddie, leila, and nick) with sal's approval.  as they were sal's house, 

They were having a blast, dancing to music, talking and laughing, trashing the house, playing games, and most were drinking. shane, y/n and y/n's weren't drinking.

shane was wearing his guy liner that he hadn’t removed from the performance he had walked that day and was wearing a t-shirt and black flared jeans with rings and his necklaces

y/n was wearing a dark strapless red mini dress with black flowers on it, and black heels. no makeup, except a strawberry chapstick she had.

minutes later, sal announced loudly so everyone could hear while holding an empty bottle

 "Everyone we're playing spin the bottle! Who's up for it?!" 

most people agreed and made a circle around while everyone else was doing something else.

 Shane and y/n say directly across each other

she could see her friends smirking. y/n side eyed them like they were insane. "Who's first?"

sal said.

"i'll go!" Mitch told them and Sal gave him the bottle. 

Mitch spun the bottle and it landed on Mia .

 sal told them "you two guys have fifteen minutes!" Mitch and Mia  went into the bathroom and pecked each other. 5 minutes later they came out and felt disgusted 

"ew gross!" and mia  pretended to vomit.

 Everyone else in the circle laughed. After a few more people went. 

it was Shane's turn. 

He spun the bottle and it landed on... y/n! 

y/n was paralyzed with fear. The thing is, Shane really loved y/n and so did y/n.

Shane smiled at y/n knowing this was his chance, and y/n blushed a little bit. He went up to her and both went to the bathroom.

Shane looked at y/n, how she dressed like a piece of fresh meat.

y/n was looking at shane's guy liner and how he was dressed tonight. 

she could get his hands on him any minute. She also wanted his hands on her.

"We both have fifteen minutes. damn i finally get to have time for this." shane smiled. 

"for what?" y/n asked. Without warning, shane grabbed y/n's face and crashed his lips on hers, tasting the strawberry chapstick from her lips.

 "I love the taste of strawberry chapstick flavor." Then he grabbed her face and kissed her more to get that strawberry chapstick flavor on him.

 then y/n grabbed shane's shoulders and gave in.

 they desperately wanted it so badly.

 Their kiss was so passionate. their sounds of their french kisses started to come in. y/n felt so many butterflies in her stomach. After two or three minutes, shane went down from her face to her neck. y/n lifted her head down a little bit, giving him more exposure. 

shane then gave her soft kisses and bites, feeling his tongue on her neck. 

y/n groaned and grabbed his curls. y/n then started to kiss and lick his jawline

Then y/n felt his hand going up her thigh under her dress, feeling the cold rings. 

He went down under and made a long lick up her thigh and went under her dress. 

He then bit down there near her clothed core. 

shane saw that she wasn't wearing anything under just her black lacy underwear. 

y/n felt herself soaking her underwear and groaned a little bit.

 "Shane..." she moaned a little as she gripped his curls with her hands and breathed almost heavily. shane smirked against her thigh and laughed darkly a little bit. "i know you like that." shane told him.

"just in your underwear, you knew what you were doing." shane smirked. 

Meanwhile at the circle, everyone else was laughing and talking. sal checked the timer on his phone and saw they had their fifteen minutes were over. sal was wondering what's taking them long.

“shouldn't y/n and shane be done already?!" mia said.

 "Uh yeah.." eddie told them. then they started to laugh and talk.

shane then put his hands on her underwear. He then asked without pressuring her, she told him yes. 

He then saw how she was. 

He put one hand on her thigh and the other lifted up her dress. 

He removed the hand that was on her thigh and softly dragged his fingertips on her core. 

y/n groaned 

"omg shane... please" she softly moaned. 

He smirked and told her, now lifting up her dress with both hands 

"i have a surprise just for you." he then fanned her wet core with his hot breath. 

His face was so close to her core, then he put his mouth on her core and started to lick it. 

he licked it everywhere, her slit and her bud, desperate for her taste. 

y/n started to moan and felt even more

butterflies in her stomach.

He slid two fingers in and pumped

More moans

“oh god- shane!” she yelled

he looked up and smirked with his eyes

he replaces his fingers with his tongue

eating her out rough, groaning against her

“fuck- shane! shane!” she said

he let her come down from her high and came back up to her face

“your so pretty and taste amazing baby.” he said

He then kissed her tasting herself from his mouth.

y/n pulled her underwear back up.

"That was great, Shane." y/n said and kissed him on the nose. They both realized that they may have gone over time. Then they quickly cleaned up the mess in the bathroom, rushed out and went back to the circle in sal's living room.

as they entered the circle, everyone was staring at them. "What took you so long? that took about over twenty five minutes." Sal said and laughed. some people in the circle started laughing. y/n was confused. she asked "what's so funny?". mia  told her,

"What’s on your neck y/n?" y/n went back to the bathroom, checked her neck in the mirror, and saw that shane gave her five hickeys on her neck. She gasped and walked back and gave shane a look

“Shane!” she says