#somanytestslately

❥ mainly for my ideal / better cr !

xxi. show / movie that reminds me of my dr :

i love victorious! there’s a lot of moments where everyone ✨ shines ✨ through their talents, and the lighthearted chaos within tori’s friend group! i also see myself having lots of fun with friends that always make me laugh in the most unexpected ways, and also being adored and loved by my friends in the sweetest way possible 🩷

it also gives me so much nostalgia and makes me feel like i’m living my dream school life in la!

i must admit, i don’t know many other medias that have the same vibes as my dr, i really need to start looking more into them 🌴☀️🌊🎀

xxii. what makes my dr special to me :

i’m my ideal, dream self in every way, in a gorgeous city that brings me joy in every moment. i’m loved by everyone, and i’m also able to inspire and help so many people with my talents : like baking sweet treats that makes everyone happy, singing and dancing skills that evoke beautiful emotions in those who listen and see, helping children especially in the local community (and using my baking, musical, dance + artistic talents to help raise for fundraisers and let them enjoy watching fun events!) and at school, being someone who brightens everyone’s day, and a role model for others to be confident and embrace themselves for who they are. encouraging others through being a cheerleader (on the field and off!) helping make the city a more beautiful and loving place for everyone!

and to be in the city of angels with my family, who are all completely happy and spending each day with me in pure love is both precious and priceless to me!

xxiii. how do i realign?

honestly, this is something i struggle with sometimes and my usual approach is to allow myself to feel emotions; eventually, i find myself realigning naturally as i feel myself drawn towards a hobby i like that reminds me of my truth, like hugging plushies, listening to music i like, or drawing. eft tapping also helps release tension caused by emotions as well.

taking a moment to pause, realize, and remind myself that i’m the observer of everything around me as awareness also empowers me too.

xxiv. how my reality already reflects my dr : 

i’ve noticed i feel a lot more detached (as in not obsessive, or constantly questioning or worrying), and i feel a lot more like i’m being my ideal self instead of trying or wishfully thinking about how i’d act, if that makes sense? i just feel it now, and i’m more certain about it! everyone lately has been complimenting and talking to me more, especially since i’ve recently gotten new glasses. a lot of other classmates and  teachers have told me i look great : D

also, i have noticed a more confident, casual attitude in + results from subs! 

xxv. scripting!!

here's a little glimpse into my life 💖

the sunset highlights the ends of my long brown hair in gold as i gracefully skip towards my cheer friends on the field, waving my shiny pom-poms in the air. everyone’s face lights up as they see me, and we all huddle into a massive hug, us in our cute outfits forming a heart shape. 

giving each other positive encouragement, i see each of my friends glow from within, smiling with true joy and confidence. we’re all made of beautiful cultures and personalities, each of us shining in our own way. we laugh over lighthearted comments and convos, from our favorite songs we’ve listened to this week, funny moments in class, and our plans for going shopping and to the beach this weekend. 

i feel at home with all of my girl friends, the cheer team truly feels like a family to me! as i see everyone’s pretty, sparkling smile and love they have for each other and me in every word, i know i’m where my heart belongs.

i’m suddenly popped out of my thought bubble when i feel a few bops on the top of my head. i turn around, to see my cousin standing there in his sports jersey, grinning at me! it makes me so happy to see him glowing with joy and as his most beautiful self, there’s an excited light and a passion for life in his eyes as he greets me.

he thanks me, telling me how much he enjoyed the little surprise treat that i packed for his lunch, baked by me! we’re more like close siblings that truly cherish each other, he even tends to call me his older sister at times. after giving me a hug, i tell him he's going to do do great tonight: he only laughs, because he knows of course he will! and then runs back to his teammates. 

as night falls, the game starts and our team is doing amazing! when the music starts to play, all of us cheerleaders start to dance, shaking our pom-poms and proudly chanting for our team. with every move, it feels natural and i flow along with songs that i love. my cousin scores a point and jumps into the air excitingly, then waves at me enthusiastically as he sees all of us supporting him and his teammates. i can’t stop smiling, i love being there with my friends to encourage our fellow players!

our team wins effortlessly with their great attitude and our positive energy, and we all high five each other at the end of the game. my friends from all my other classes, who have come to see the game, walk up to me and give me compliments and express their admiration for our performance, then chat with me about lots of fun things! 

suddenly, a super upbeat song (sugar by maroon 5) starts to play louder on the field, and all of us get up and start to dance, my cheer friends even picking me up and carrying me around. we all share lots of laughter, and i find myself just screaming with happiness and excitement through the cool night breeze, in the lights that surround us and in everyone’s hearts.

xxvii. gratitude list : 

my mom’s infinite love for me

my life being full of infinite opportunities, no matter how it looks or feels at the moment

how i feel everything is aligning for me!

xxviii. self concept : ( i am identity )

i think the best way i can describe my self concept is i am blessed with good things always coming my way!

xxix. my advice : 

remember to make manifesting / shifting fun and absolutely enjoyable for you! i think its very easy to get caught up in doing things to get results (like listening to subs, visualizing and affirming as hard as possible, etc.) when our desires are already a part of us, not even desires but our possessions / us already. think of how there are already so many infinite possibilities and realities there are of you: all the possible dream jobs you could be doing, being in shows you love, different dream vacations you could be going to, and they all exist, and you are already there in them, and not apart from them. for me, i focus on being aware of how it was like to already be in my dr, allowing myself to enjoy it in ways i liked. i didn’t feel like i was trying or forcing myself, it just felt natural as i only did what i loved. manifesting doesn’t need to feel unnatural, an obligated effort, or a chore!

and be creative! think of your hobbies, talents, and what you love doing, and turn it into something that confirms you have what you want! for example, if you like drawing and you’re manifesting your desired appearance, you could draw a pic of you, be your own muse! if you like writing, write out your dream fanfic-like life, not bc you’re trying to manifest it but bc you’re already living it, maybe even write perspectives from other people who see you as your ideal self!

just because someone hasn’t made a subliminal or method for it, or if your desire is very specific doesn’t mean it isn’t possible. you hold the power and can use it in any way you like! there are no rules or a “perfect” way to manifest with rigid rules, please just do what you feel is right for you! there are many videos and interpretations of manifesting online, but the only information that matters should be the kind that aligns with you and makes you feel good!

lastly, make sure to take care of yourself! it’s ok to pause and take breaks if that’s what you need, burning yourself out or trying to “rush” isn’t healthy for you. your emotions also matter and deserve to treated with care too <3 they don’t contradict your desires in any way bc you already have them, and even living with your desire it’s normal that you may feel emotions from time to time.

xxx. success stories and overall reflection! 

scripting! i listened to this video with a morphic field that enchants an object, using it on my phone and scripted that my teachers like me and i’m good friends with them. and lately i’ve had some really funny and nice conversations with them, where they compliment and smile at me, so i know it worked!  

subs! i have noticed results and changes in my reality from them, like ones that make you the teacher’s fav student and liked by them. i will continue listening while holding belief they work for me, especially for “bigger” manifestations!

visualization! i wanted to show my teacher an essay yet as soon as i reached her classroom, she was walking down the hallway the other direction! so i closed my eyes and visualized her walking back and being happy to see me. after a few minutes, she came back and said almost exactly what i imagined her to in my mind! plus she complimented my essay : )

i got doughnut’s costume i really wanted in cookie run! i imagined seeing this on my screen, pulled in the costume gacha, and it became true 🍩

i said that i would be manifesting scholarships, and i just had an interview relating to one a few days ago! and it was bc i got recommended by my guidance counselor for it, one of the two girls chosen!

drawing! i had an idea of drawing me as my ideal self, and i’ve in the process of coloring a simple portrait now now, i wanted to share it here yet it’s taking a while ahhhh

overall : i really enjoyed participating in your challenge @princessaffirms ! thank you for coming up with it, i’m happy to have stepped out of my comfort zone here and i want to keep doing so in the future. i think interacting with a community is so helpful because it drove me forward in treating my dr as real and happening now through actively creating and participating in it instead of just thinking / hoping for it in the back of my mind. i think i may make some posts in the future relating to drs or just making manifestation fun, as i’ve learned a lot about myself and my dr through this. i’d love to even script more about my drs, it’s so fun and it truly feels real to me when i do.