Like, psychiatric diagnoses are a complex phenomenon and they are often wrongly framed as prediscursive and apolitical they are sometimes helpful and sometimes harmful and have a VERY fraught history. And the same is true of psychiatric medications. But a year and a half ago, my doctor was like, I hear you saying you "don't" "have" "ocd," but how about we just TRY you on this medication we give people with ocd to see if it makes you less afraid, and if it doesn't, you can stop taking it. And I was like, well, I am very afraid, so, sure, might as well try. And now I am like 65% less afraid, and I no longer have to knock on my head three times to prevent tragedy when I verbally or even silently-in-my-own-head acknowledge that something is going or might go well, and I no longer believe that if I don't consume the right teas and right snacks in the right order the right amount of time before bed I will never fall asleep, and I no longer have to indulge several other much more insane and inconvenient superstitions that I'd rather not list, lol.
