I can’t believe I never considered how being in love with a mortal feels to Solas. The terror of “you’re dying a little every day. If I stop and I do what you ask, I’ll still lose you. If I don’t stop, and I return to you what I took from you… I’ll still lose you. But I can bear your hatred better than I can your death.”
Which leads me to think this: Solas was going to do everything in his power to protect Lavellan once the Veil fell. Whatever chaos ensued, her life was immediately prioritized. His mission is complete. Now he can choose what he truly wants.
She won’t love him. But it’s less about being loved and more about loving her. The willingness to be hated to the bone by someone that he loves so much. Which then leads me to think that Solas had accepted she might even come to the place of killing him. Which, I hear people saying he’d have killed her because he killed Varric, but y’all.
I just don’t know.
Varric wasn’t HER. He’s surprised and ruefully glad to see Varric. He sees Lavellan and Solas can’t breathe.
“It would be kinder in the long run, but losing you would-“
Do I love you into your grave, when I can stop your grave from ever existing? How can I say I love you if I’m not willing to be hated by you in order to save you?
And in the end, he gets it all. He gets to save the world, though from the return of the Blighted Evanuris. And he gets to save his wife from Death itself. They can go where time won’t touch her ever again. He gets it all.
