#sofucked

I'd seen a few things about it on my news feed, ya know with showing the nice aspects of the story, somehow, and how people were literally in love with this and couldn't wait for new chapters. So, I thought, why not get my head stuck stupidly deep into this. I was expecting some 'yaoi' and a 'dark basis' on the storyline from some of the things I'd seen and I knew there would be some blood spilling and shit.... BUT FUCK WAS I WRONG!! Hell, would anything have prepared me for this? For someone that knew next to nothing about Killing Stalking it really, and I mean really shocked me. This shit blew my mind the more I read, even though it's completely fucked up, i love it. I wanted an early night, but here I am, at 5 in the morning writing this just to say Killing Stalking is so fucked up but so fucking good.

Disclaimer: While not depressive, it’s certainly very angry.  You’ve been warned.

I am never booking through a travel site again.

According to Priceline, most of the things you book through their system are non-refundable.  I knew this at the time I booked this vacation for Sam and I, but I thought it would be fine.

Turns out, things are not fine.  They are far from fine.  I was persuaded to book this trip under false pretenses and now, I’m stuck with it.  Sam talked me into buying the airfare and hotel on the pretense that he buy tickets to see shows while we were gone.

Now, I have realized he is a full blown liar and not one I can trust.  And do the people and Priceline give a shit?  No, they do not.  They refused to help me whatsoever, and all of their rules say I cannot get refunded or change any detail of the itinerary.

I am so angry I could scream.  But I’m too exhausted to scream or cry anymore.

Worse still, a group of our mutual friends and I are planning an intervention to confront him about his attitude and LIES.  All his damned lies!  So if he decides to bail on the trip, I’m out ALL of that money.  I’m forced to take the trip by myself and lose the money for his ticket and hotel.  I can’t switch the name so someone else can go with me or ANYTHING.

All because I booked through Priceline.  Their rules are evil and they had no sympathy for the fact that I am going to be traveling with a pathological liar and someone I no longer trust.  No help, no nothing.  I either travel or I’m out $800 and Sam still gets to take the trip on his own for free.

I just...I can’t.  There is no way around it.  No way out of it, I’m stuck.  

I know you might be thinking, “It’s only a few days, and what did he do that was so bad?”

He lied about auditioning and getting cast in a show, he lied about having a book deal (the purpose of this trip), he lied about knowing a celebrity and he has been an overall prick to my friends and talking shit about me behind my back.  And this is the man I have to travel with on this trip for 4 days that Priceline refuses to refund me for. 

And United Airline’s hands are tied because I booked through a travel agency.  Fucking wonderful.

I’m so done with all of this drama.  At least the trip is next month so I can take it be done.  I’ll enjoy it the best I can, but I hope he knows something: I am bringing enough money for me.  Just because I have a credit card doesn’t mean I will pay for everything he can’t afford.  He assumes I will pay, and he assumes in error.  I will not.  

He has angered me and those around me to a grievous degree and now, I’m left with an $800 mistake, money I will never see again.  He can still take the trip, even if I decide not to go.

I talked to Florizel a lot about this, and he feel sorry for me.  I feel so damned stuck.  I don’t even want to go home for fear I’ll blow a damn fuse and kick Sam out of my house.  I need an excuse and fast to get him gone.  I’ll take the trip if I must, but I need my house back.

For now, I just take the trip and make no complaints.  What’s done is done, no sense in being a cry baby about it.  I’m upset, yes.  But I might as well enjoy the trip as much as possible.  I made it clear to Sam that we pay for our own things, and I will not let him blind side me.

If he spends all his money, that’s on him.  I will not cover for him.

After this trip, he’s done.