just thinking about the parallels of bolaire showing hal his true self and trusting him with it to him asking azune for help instead last night because maybe he doesn't trust hal anymore
not only he found out that the person who made his life miserable might still be alive but everyone else (exept maybe julien) is so excited about this. he has to watch hal have so much hope again while barely registering bolaire the whole time
the only times hal acknowledged bolaire were to express worry about the body he was inhabiting (totally valid btw, since he was not sure bolaire could inhabit someone without killing them). he didn't say "please don't punch my friend (bolaire)" he said "please don't punch my friend (misha)"
now pair this with thjazi only speaking to bolaire through thimble, calling him an it, now acknowledging him at all
in his mind one of his biggest fears came true. hal is finally seeing him how thjazi saw him
he finally has no one. he's alone. he will leave in the morning and get out of hal's hair. he has to look for his sister's because she's dangerous and hal has to look for his brother because he loves him
he's a thing, a weapon. this was never going to last



















