I’m doing good at work. Others think I’m doing great. I think I’m just doing an okay job. But apparently I’m doing so good I’ve got 2 new huge cases that are both really complex and will demand a lot of work. So I’m at 18 which is less than ideal.
How can there be such a disconnect between how I think I’m going and how others think I’m going. Do I just have too high expectations for myself? I don’t get it.
Plus my friend who is in burnout and off work doesn’t know this yet but One of the cases I’m getting is hers. And I know it’s going to crush her self esteem to know they gave it to me. Plus I’m going to appear like it’s not a big deal as I have a bit of compassion fatigue and it’s going to look to her as though I’m managing it easily but it won’t be easy at all.
I’m nervous about navigating all this with her.
Also I’m nervous that my manager thinks I’m better at my job than I actually am. I know I have confidence issues but.... yikes.