#snippetsofthoughts

Something else I may have picked up from you

I've learned how to leave you behind

I've cemented you into June

It was a beautiful year

and I think I'm ready to begin anew

But of course

I showed you

How i kept my hands from being lonely.

You smiled,

You thought you'd already learned

All the passageways and turns

But this is something i picked up in your absence.

Scrolling only caused

Endless hollowness and insanity.

So i learned to fold paper heart rings

To keep my fingers from isolation

In the absence of your adoration

And to keep my mind from wandering

Back below the ink that I'm prone to.

You smiled,

Said you wanted one in blue.

Here it is,

I'll inscribe our initials

It’s so strange

this hold a human being can have on another

I remember, just a year ago,

I would want to tell only my best friend about the new experiences I’ve had

About the days that would be eternally wedged in the bookshelves in my head

And this week

After the very first time I truly felt love for my education

After the most exhilarating first step towards my dream profession

I wanted to gush to you as well.

I wanted to call so I could

See your eyes open wide at the things I’ve done,

Hear the sharp intake when you’ve heard of the wild mid morning encounter,

Listen to you tell me that you’re proud of me,

Feel like someone outside of those obligated to tell me I’m doing this right

Truly believes it too.

It’s astounding how you still have a death grip on my emotions

despite us both seeing our futures slowly diverging.

It’s like our red threads were parallel to one another

when a strong wind came and twirled them around

Making it seem like we were destined to permanently tie ourselves together

But really, it was only a matter of time until someone came

and loosened the tangle in the fabric.

Still though, 

My material has yet to lose creases from where you sat down

My heart still dips to accommodate your warmth.

Like folds in the sheets, 

your indent will eventually be washed away, hung out to dry, and be replaced by a new body.

For now