#smome

Every single one of us have traits that are toxic, right ? Like me for example, my toxic trait is how I can over indulge into things like weed when I first started smoking. I never knew a feeling of bliss like being high before In my life. I remember smoking by myself, feeling numb for the first time in my life. Just numb. Barely eating, barely talking, barely HERE.

The reason why I make sure to take care of myself now, is because of how i treated myself when I was high. It is possible to be high as fuck and still sad like you never smoked. That numbness became addicting to me because I hated how my life was turning out. I started hating myself. I lost a lot of weight because I would smoke more than I ate. Chronic depression while you’re high is the worst because you can’t even trust yourself because mentally you aren’t that strong. I am so glad that I broke out of that. (Yes, Men go through anorexia too)

I only smoke if I eat first. I gained all that weight back (and then some 😅). I am comfortable with who I am now, and I’m proud of that. When people say “I am a stoner because...” I listen because I want to know your story. It’s hard to relate to everybody in the world but one thing I can say whoever read this I relate to you. If you’re going through something that you don’t know how to deal with, use the strength from this post. Uncle Ben said “with great power comes great responsibility” and that couldn’t be more true for somebody like me who tends to overindulge.

a bowl pack a day