#smallerthanfour

This girl, I tell you. ❤️ This is my dream photo: old gas station, road trip vibes and my love. #vaguearlapepita #smallerthanfour #tolivewithanopenheart (em Somewhere In Spain) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz7rPMuHiyl/?igshid=rh47wir8uf9m

She was my superhero, today. Today was flying day, and I’d been doing great. For the first time in years, I had barely thought of the flight until the day of. I was ecstatic and hopeful and hyper, until I made the one cardinal mistake: I checked the weather report. See, I was never a good flyer, but for a couple of years I managed pretty well, until one night in 2016, a monumental storm gave me the fright of my life. Since then, as most of you know, it’s been a struggle. But I try, and I’ve been getting better, but seeing that there was an expected red-alert storm in Frankfurt (where we had the layover) put me in a panic. Somehow, I got on the flight there. We did it. It was softly shaking throughout but the descent was brutal. Air pockets and clouds and strong winds that shook us. I actually saw a soft metal part of the plane fly away. I cried when we stopped, that I couldn’t go on the connecting flight to Berlin of takeoff was to be done like that. And surely enough, when we got to the second plane and I asked the flight attendant if they expected the flight to be turbulent, his reply was ‘yeah. It’s going to be very bumpy.’ Which lead to more panic. I looked at Mel very seriously and said ‘I can’t. I’m not taking this flight.’ And she was there. She asked if I was sure, a few tears were shed and we were out; me in tears of shame and sadness for having failed this flight, Mel full of resolve to get us to Berlin. Amazing as @lufthansa crews always are, they took care of us. They transferred out plane tickets to train tickets for free and we couldn’t have been more thankful. So now we’re on the train to our second city, trying to arrive soon after a stressful, crazy day. I’m so thankful for everyone who was kind and sweet today (including my insane family from whom I have about 25637 answered calls), but most of all for my @melberlin, who held me together when I was falling the fuck apart. It’s been exhausting, today. But hopefully, tomorrow will be better. 💛🌻<4 #tolivewithanopenheart #smallerthanfour #luluandlinainberlin (em Germany) https://www.instagram.com/p/BttyCCBnnBK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ak8ugao9e428

We're making an effort to thoroughly enjoy our last weeks in Viana, traveling around to places we're yet to visit. We went to Spain yesterday, to Pontevedra, and had a wonderfully sunny day. These days are what keeps me looking up on days when house hunting and airplane courses are too much. (Also, my #d750 is back so I can post camera photos again!) #ourhomeinviana #smallerthanfour #iloveherso (em Pontevedra, Spain)

berlin, day four. finding an outfit that makes you feel mighty. remembering how absolutely at home you feel in museums, how you find yourself in the corners and in the details and in looking for tratteggio in paintings. having cheeks that get red from the cold. feeing strong and grown up enough to not have to smile in photos. realizing you remember more than you thought you did. running through arches and steps and busy streets. holding hands, always holding hands. coming into your own as one and as two and as the infinite that we are. (photo 6 taken by @melberlin) #smallerthanfour (em Berlin, Germany) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmJmI56Md5rthRTd57QffrqF-Qh2u4ZegwVa4Q0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

It helps a lot when it’s sunny. It brightens up moods and makes us feel a bit better. It also makes us want to go outside and enjoy the good weather, but there will be time for that in a bit, we hope. I can’t help but wonder how the world is going to be when we come out of it, and if I’m honest, I’m terrified. But something’s gotta give, right? Something good has to come out of it. #isolationcreation #smallerthanfour #tolivewithanopenheart (em Porto, Portugal) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_Kz88jnq6T/?igshid=191j8ojduclhg

Missing the quiet happiness of the mountains, today. #smallerthanfour #tolivewithanopenheart (em Serra da Estrela Natural Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvHcKJSHmkC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=voj4s9ef9gzz

I asked @melberlin to take this super-duper-artsy-fartsy photo of me in front of what became my favorite hangout location in Berlin. @brammibalsdonuts has the best donuts I ate in my life, and that’s saying something, because I’m kind of obsessed with donuts. And everything is pink. And the employees are sweethearts. And you can sit by the window and watch people pass by, same way you can run into the people who made the films you loved the most at @berlinale. It’s magical and it’s gorgeous. The festival was over a week ago today and simultaneously feels like it was yesterday and a year ago, already. Can it be Berlinale time again? #tolivewithanopenheart #luminousinberlin #smallerthanfour (em Brammibal's Donuts) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuQrfyCHny0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1846jzxbhsdar

Of finding small pieces of heaven within the city. #tolivewithanopenheart #smallerthanfour (em Porto, Portugal) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bqu78uXnGZz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=rb5qmpko4pew