#slime diary

i really have felt like. so much more at home in my body than i can ever remember feeling. i was talking to my partner about it earlier, and like. weirdly, it feels like a relief more than anything? i still haven’t had top surgery which i know will be the biggest relief imaginable (binding has started to hurt like. seriously bad lately, and i have to do it 9 hours at a go almost every day for work), but even just the small changes have given me these occasional feelings of just like. genuine contentness in the moment that i’ve never felt before. 

unfortunately, i still don’t pass very well even 10 months on T. i chalk that up to my “facial hair” coming in transparent still mostly. but i feel more confident when i speak, i love how fluffy i’ve gotten, i can see my shoulders and upper arms filling out and my hips getting a little slimmer which is Epic. i even prefer the way i smell now which is a wild thing to have a feeling about one way or another. overall, i think any anxieties i had that i was “not trans enough to transition” are mostly gone due to just how overwhelmingly better i feel in my own skin even at this point.