#sleeper agent lover

hey if you were an estranged star crossed lover homoerotic long distance best friend would you respond to a “hey faggot” text or what.

he’s kind of my laura palmer if you think about it

either need to text/call him do drugs or hurt myself. if i call him high w no response i can do all three. who else cheered

its so awesome crying bc i still want him? i have a girlfriend who i love so much and who knows about him but i think its just because i listened to this stupid song too many times and got stupid and also this is my first time not smoking weed b4 bed in like a month or two sooooooo . god i miss him :( i really want to text him

ur gonna break no contact via PINTEREST DM????????? i’m actually going to start crying and vomiting you are such a dog with ur tail tucked between ur legs. cmere i need to [loud censor beep]

i really wish i had someone to talk to about this but i do not. and i don't think i ever will and it's all killing me so maybe i'll do another page of work and smoke a cigarette and skip dinner

all i want is to show him the poems i've written about him, all i want is to show him the best one all i want is for him to look at me all i want is for him to talk to me i don't know how i got over this last time and i don't know how i'll get over it again i know he's alive but it feels like i'm mourning his death i want to throw myself out of my apartment window

i miss being cared for. not to be mr faggot loser like Oh nobody care me but its like damn. im tired guys. i miss him. he made me feel held but i think i was being insane and scared him away forever this time and lol LOL i want to die like i genuinely really want to die i miss him so much it hurts i try not to think about how much i miss him but its so prevelent its so true its such a weird grief that i dont know how to carry.