#skylu

I was in a fusion mood- so i took pea, mel, otto and skylar and fused them with their favorite matsu-

“I’ve been feeling better lately, so I decided to sneak out early to try to catch some fish.  I’ve been terribly bored so finding something to do with myself was priority number one. I stumbled into Kiki on the way down! I was happy to see her, but something seemed to be troubling her. After a little bit of prodding I found out that she was bothered by some recent information. Apparently she had bumped into a girl who was over at Menphina’s the other night who I served at the pizzeria while she was there with Krick. She claimed that the girl was talking about how the ‘cute lalafell bartender’ was flirting hard with her and insisted that she was cute despite her opinions to the contrary.

Now, for context, this is only half right. There was a Lalafellin woman who I was serving towards the end of the night and I did compliment her. However, she seemed to be in a depressive slump, people were ignoring her all night, and she had opened up to me about how her advances on one of our other clients were met with rejection. So yes, I complimented her. I tried to raise her spirits up and give her the confidence she seemed to be so sorely lacking in. I never had any intentions aside from that! 

Thankfully, despite Kiki’s concerns, she was able to understand where I was coming from and we talked it out. I think she feels a bit better now. I’ve never really had a relationship like this before...I guess I need to be a little more careful about how I try to make people feel better from now on!”

A Choice Stolen: Part 2

After it became clear there was nothing I could do to chance his mind, I ran from Kip’s, from Menphina’s, and my legs carried me down to the pier. Water seemed to appeal to all my emotions... and this was a time I needed it most.

I had held everything back for as long as I could, not wanting Kip to be influenced by my tears... but I couldn’t control them anymore. My mask fell off into the water, and all the tears that had been resting behind it fell with it... along with a flood of new ones...

But I couldn’t stay long. There was a chance that he would come after me, and I didn’t want any false reunion... so I took the boat back to main Gridania, and went back to the Apkallu Falls. No one ever seems to be there - especially at night. Though I can’t understand why. It’s such a relaxing place. Not to mention fun! I used to play in there a lot when I was younger.

Though... that night, I needed it more for it’s calming properties than anything else. The sound of the falls would aid to stop my head spinning.. it had been running so fast... ducking and diving, weaving and winding... I couldn’t think, I couldn’t not think... I needed something to distract me, and that’s exactly what the falls’ rushing waters did.

But then here was the pain in my chest... perhaps the soft waters of the pond itself could ease my aching heart...

At the very least, it help me breathe...

I must have sat there for hours... I didn’t even notice the rain until the moment I finally decided to leave, and noticed the sudden weight different in my dress as it had become completely soaked.

Still, mayhap the cool rain waters would soothe my eyes. They were so sore and puffy, and I didn’t want anyone else to see... I didn’t want anyone else to worry.

With the sun rising, I made haste to my tree house, where I could hide away from the world and everything in it...

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“We met under the stars after about a week of being apart. I was so nervous about this...what was going to come from it? Nothing, I said. I was convinced that Kiki could never see me as more than a friend. I had come to terms with that. It was a bitter pill to swallow, but not an unfamiliar one.

She told me about why she walked away on the day of my confession- that her ex had up and left without a word one day, leaving her high and dry. Between that and her parents being taken away by the Calamity, Kiki had become terrified of letting anyone get too close again. She doesn’t deserve to carry that burden. No one does. I tried to ease her fears because I wanted her to know love one day. Even if it wasn’t my love. No one should have to live alone for the rest of their days in fear of loss. That in and of itself is a loss.

After some time she admitted that our feelings were not as one-sided as I initially suspected. That truly surprised me, and I expressed my concerns about how I thought she only had eyes for Miqo’te. Apparently that wasn’t quite the case, or atleast, I’m willing to trust that she’s telling me the truth on that. After talking over the logistics of it, Kiki entertained the idea of trying to form a relationship with me, albeit a slow and steady one. I’m elated, but also quite scared, if I’m honest.

I fear that going forward my actions may make or break Kiki’s heart forever. She doesn’t deserve to suffer like that, and I couldn’t bear the thought of being the cause of it. I want to do right by her. I’m afraid of what might happen if it turns out that we make better friends than lovers but...I can’t think like that. This risk Kiki is taking is a blessing, and I mean to treat it like the boon it is. For better or worse, I will take great care to treat her heart with the tenderness it deserves for as long as she wants me.”

PREMIERE: Skylu delivers hazy nostalgia on charming alt-pop gem ‘Ladders’

South-London singer-songwriter Skylu is poised to release new single ‘Ladders’, lifted from her forthcoming debut EP due this Spring. ‘Ladders’, which is co-produced by Brighton based producer Lyonheart, follows on from her recent single ‘Foreign Concept’. ‘Ladders’ combines beguiling piano led melodies over bittersweet, nuanced lyricism and you can listen to it here first on SMM before it drops tomorrow.

Skylu explains: "This track takes me back to my teenage years, pushing limits under dark skies, neon lights, first love, false confidence and oceanic feelings. I used to run away to the river with my discman to hide from the world. I never really said a proper goodbye to my first love, it was tumultuous to say the least. Ladders captures the playfulness, freedom, raw emotion and insecurity underpinning that time. It feels brave and raw and magnetic. It was written in one afternoon in Brighton.”