#skipskipskip

idk what a healthy response would be to being, like, ghosted or left on read etc

like maybe if you're secure enough in yourself, you just give them the benefit of the doubt. "must be busy, hope they're okay" but when more time passes and there's nothing...then what? because my mind goes to "it was me, i wasn't funny enough, i knew i shouldn't have said [xyz] that was so stupid." like that's probably normal to a degree- but only to a degree. especially since i even think this way with, like, my sisters. who i KNOW are not on their end of the phone rolling their eyes or bashing me. (...probably.)

idk but it happens so often on the dreamwidth rp scene that i almost feel like i need to quit for my own sanity. i had posted on one of those comms where you're looking for rp partners and someone responded to me with a character i was looking to play with. great! amazing! we took it over to private messages to hash out what we wanted to thread. their last message to me was basically "i'm excited to thread more with you!" (it turned out we'd threaded before with other characters)

and then nothing. it's been over a week now, when previously they had been responding within a day. and, like, i hope they're okay, but my mind is already bracing to see them around tagging other people. i'm going to wonder why this keeps happening and i'm going to blame myself.