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THE DEVIL IS IN THE DETAILS As I wait to hear back from Dallas County Court 1 about Antonio being served, every other day I can guarantee to happen upon a tweet that reconfirms why showing empathy to a sociopath is a lost cause. When lying is second nature, the lines get blurred on what's irrational and what's reality. Antonio is a very undisciplined dreamer. For the current LLC he has, A2Fit was launched poorly in 2018. Why would you anchor your business for an entire year and a half in Playa Vista when you have no car to get to your work site? Regrettably the first time I loaned him money for his business was June of 2018 in the amount of $500. According to him, it was the security fee the city required for him to operate his boxing fitness workouts on one of their sanctioned lawns. To date he's completed less than 50 workouts in Playa because he lacks clientele. While Mr Aaron spends 12+ hours a day online, he doesn't apply any of that time toward building his business and prospecting for new clients. Yes, he gloats and muses about "the company", but there's no substantial revenue. The data that he submits to Playa Vista is false (of course I have receipts). Its unfortunate that at his big old age of 35, his insecurities push him to constantly lie about a failed business venture. Instead, he will continue to shout down a very hollow Twitter well the untruths about his success because he likes to tweet what sounds good. Compulsive lying is a key trait of a sociopath. They will often disregard the truth to make themselves look better or to manipulate others into extending favors. So, why would someone in financial ruin post about getting additional Llcs for imaginary businesses? Call it wishful thinking, he's not smart enough to understand tax laws or shelters. Pay back can't come soon enough......

I find it interesting when these types of messages spew from certain Black males who live a life of total hypocrisy. Antonio subscribes to: -Colorism, he's never dated a woman as dark as himself and leans on the ideologies of preference -Although he's sexually fluid, he is quite homophobic (despite having gay friends and acquaintances) and subscribes to the notep notions of a gay agenda -His first wife was Italian, to date he still fancies White women but stop fucking them on the premise that he wants his children to have "color" -His second long term girlfriend who is full Korean, wears Blackness like a costume (box braids, cornrows, etc), and she still parades his grandmother on her IG like it's her foster mom. He let's that shit go unchecked -The last White woman he played house with back in 2017 is 6 years his senior and took care of him financially while he acted as the surrogate Dad for soccer practice for her biracial son (he'll tell you a Mark Wahlberg story connected to all of that) - He helicopters Black woke women on Twitter and IG for sport, but he's still innately classist, sexist, and full of empty pan African machismo -Layllen, a woman who considers him a friend and has often extended her home and space to him, is someone he chides as being unrealistic and flighty because she practices positive thought and manifestations. She has a plush place to stay at the W in L.A., while he's still a Hobosexual (always with the misplaced priorities) -His Talent agent is a White woman who regularly sends him out on auditions for officer or soldier roles, he's had one single television placement in 2019 - His roommates are White - His writing mentors are White - His dick tingles when he's the only Black body in the room, because he's wildly performative -He enjoys and engages in tokenism - He believes in 2A and thinks him being a gun enthusiast is a social and racial equalizer For Black men and women He is not a protector, he's a predator. Mr. Aaron is 35 year old wannapreneur in the throws of life giving him back everything that he's taken from others. He's a habitual liar and manipulator. Social media is his safe space, because online he can be anything he wants to be for those gullible enough to subscribe to his fairytale. Regrettably, he's been the biggest mistake of my life from the first DM he sent me in 2012. He really could have just left me alone, but he targets kindness. He exploits those who sacrifice to help him, and sooner than later his sociopathy is going to elevate to a criminal level. But yeahhhhh, how are we going to protect our women?

Today, I awoke to a notification on Google Hangouts, because my ex is trying to play it safe and delete the media shared between us. I get it, I'm the stalker. Could I be the crazy one, am I making it all up? The scores are the scores. And liars don't realize the best way to not have to undo dumb shit is to never let it happen in the first place. The downside to dating a scammer is that they always believe they are the smartest person in the room. If you are kind and generous, they take those sentiments as aloof and naive. The reality is I’ve always felt great empathy for him. He’s a masterful storyteller which also makes him an exceptional liar. Always the hero of his story or the betrayed victim of someone else’s actions, Mr. Aaron is void of accountability. So, his spiral of mishaps keeps turning. Antonio is recognizably his greatest asset and his own most lethal threat. Mr. Aaron is an over-sharer. So, whether it was trip to the sex shop to buy a "massager", or another video of him jacking his dick, he desired to be watched. He aches to be admired and I would always oblige him. Subsequently, saving the videos was just a sentimental notion on my behalf because he used to express so much sweetness in these digital moments. Now all of the content will work in my favor for my day in court. Looking back, his level of deception really aligns with that of a sociopath, because his theatrics were unconscionable. He was always manipulative and more committed to the lie than interacting with me in an honorable way. The video thumbnail above was from a video he sent to me the day of my surgery. Months prior he kept asking me if I set a date, because he wanted to be there for it. I knew he wouldn't be able to, because his finances were perpetually low. Him visiting Texas for the last 12 months was always on my dime, but I took comfort in the effort. The week of my procedure, I gave him my Dad's contact information, so he could call to get a status on my progress while I was under. I made it through the procedure just fine. 12 fibroids removed and now we could continue the plan of "being parents and building our lives together". Those were his words. I made my Dad aware of who I had given his number too, because a few people knew about my health issues. Antonio was the only one who didn't text or call. My father made it sternly clear, he didn't call. For that, I was ashamed. When I came to consciousness and the anesthesia was wearing off, Mr. Aaron had created a video through Hangouts, telling me how proud he was. "You are never far from my thoughts, and always in my heart." I can tell that he wasn't in Pasadena, he made the video from Stephanie's apartment. Another of many lies, but my only desire in that moment was to get home and get well.