#situaaation

mack slumped into the wall blinking once every five minutes: smittyyyyy im not evnen drunk im so sober lke its so funny youre so funny youre so hammered ohmg goddd smit smitty look at you youresuch a lightweight youre such a bbaby hey smittty smit dowsnt smitty sound like baby babyyyy baby smitty my baby smittyyyyyy imagine if toff was here now ohmy goddd and delly theyd chirp you so baddd youre such a baby uoure my baby my baby right smity smit aren you youre so gross oh mygodddd oh my godddd is that throw up on your shirt doyou need mine do tou really need minw do you need me to help do you need meeeeeee tell me you needme plwasee plwasaaaee plwwas smitty ill die without tou lets ger drunk abain tomorrow and uou babysit me payback paybackkk pleaseee you owe me thid lets just do this forever and stay here for eer and ever and just us only us remember that mhm mhm plwase plwaseee babyyyyy smittyyyybabe smify smit

or of course the most embarrassing where wills sobbing and making himself sick bc time is passing too fast and last week i was 20 and now im 21 and next week ill be 35 but somehow i still feel 17 and like nothing will ever make sense again not without the program not without an adult telling me how to feel and what to do about it like i couldnt do my laundry then and last week i shrunk a sweater so maybe i cant do my laundry now and im afraid im doing this all wrong because it doesnt feel normal nothing ever feels normal for us not like that first year at bc never like that and idk if i can ever return to it or if that life passed me by already idk if i can ever be normal again isnt that awful that i got everything i wanted and i still wanna go back sometimes doesnt that make me a selfish person and oh my god this was supposed to be fun we were supposed to be having a good night im so sorry idk whats wrong with me idk why im like this im sorry idk why i cant stop crying i dont know i dont knowww but you make it better macky i swear you do i know im a mess but you keep me on track you know youre that guy for me i always got you im your guy too you know ill always have a plan for us and ill make this up to you i promise i just i dont know whats wrong with me tonight i shouldnt have had that last shot im sorry

mack finding The will smith i take note of Everything moleskin journal and immediately cracking into it bc he has no sense of boundaries and Is in fact entitled to every single piece of wills being